PinkBubbles

Letting go is hard to do

May flowers always line your path and sunshine light your day.
May songbirds serenade you every step along the way.
May a rainbow run beside you in a sky that's always blue.
And may happiness fill your heart each day your whole life through.
~Irish Blessing

I am off to the airport to drop off Kat. Saying I will miss her is an understatement. I really feel that this is her best shot at redefining herself or at least her best shot at letting go of some hurts from the past that center around this town and a couple of people in it. She is becoming more at peace with her decision and her hardest and actually only 'thing' is how much she will miss me. It is taking everything in me to not leave my husband and follow her wherever she might lead me but I have done that before. She needs to remember she deserves happiness and that she is special. She needs to remember that everything does not come easy. I am thinking selfishly right now, but I will miss her and want her here. I am going to feel so alone. I realize I have my husband but everything I know is in Cali. too bad we really dislike where I came from (the valley for those of your familiar with Cali) and can not afford to move to the more beautiful parts of the state.

I will need to find real ways to fill my time. I want to move immediately (that wont happen but we can do it soon), I need to go back to working with children. I need to concentrate on improving my own situation and work on me so i show my children by example....

I am thankful for this site and another site that I belong to (but have been lax on visiting). Without having made any 3D friends here, I feel less alone, so I say my thanks to those of you that have shown support, gave love, shared your lives, hope, dreams, fears, etc. with me. You should know who you are.

Kat will be fine. I want her to know she will succeed.