Twilight: One Foot in Front of the Other

I'm Confused

She woke the next morning after a short restless sleep, ate breakfast, and went to the lab for some more boring tests. The smell was not quite, so over powering this time, but it did take some considerable concentrations to keep her fear under control.


“Shan, if you need a break, it is fine,” smiled Carlisle


“No, I be Fine. You’re about done though, right?” quietly asked Shan


“You are far from fine, but your courage I admire,” smile Eleazar proudly “You don’t know how glad I am to see you conquering this,”


“I don’t know which is worse, the fear, or me memories,” sighed Shan


“Have you thought about writing your memories down?” ask Carlisle looking into his microscope


“No, why would I do that?” asked Shan confused


“Carlisle is right, that might be a great way to deal with them,” explained Eleazar


“Okay guys, Charlie will be here soon. Let’s give Shan some time to relax before the game,” smiles Carmen from the door


“Shan, before you go, I just wanted to say thank you. I know this is really hard on you,” smiled Carlisle


“Shouldn’t it be me thanking you? After all you are trying to help me,” replied Shan looking at him confused


“Come on; help me get some refreshments around for you and Charlie. I think Seth and Jacob are coming too. ” smiled Esme taking Shan by the shoulders and walking out the room with her


“Alice is very contagious,” sighed Shan “you really do need to put a warning label on her”


“Contagious?” repeated Esme confused


“She has all of you hugging and touching me now,” smiled Shan giving Esme a slight hug


“It’s because you’re so warm and squishy,” laughed Esme returning the hug


“I’ll get it.” smiled Bella going to answer the doorbell


“Hello, I was wondering if Shan was home?” Asked Ted


“Yea, she’s here. Come on in” replied Bella than notices the others “o hi dad, hi guys”


“Well hello Ted how are you today” smiles Esme


“Umm hello ma’am, fine thanks” replies Ted “I was in the neighborhood, and I thought I’d see if you’d like to go for a drive, Shan?”


“A drive?” Repeats Eleazar


“Hey Ted, this is my, umm… dad… Eleazar” studiers Shan not sure on how to introduce them


“Oh, hello sir” replies Ted nervously


“The family was just sitting down to watch the big game” growls Eleazar looking him up and down


“Why don’t you join us Ted?” invites Carmen placing her hand on Eleazar’s arm


“Ooh he’s really cute,” whispers Kate leading Shan to the couch that Emmet was sitting on


“Thanks” replied Ted sitting down on the other side of Shan. “Do you watch a lot of football?”


“Umm, no, not really. This be me first game” studiers Shan nervously glaring at Kate


“You guys aren’t goanna talk all though the game are you?” Snaps Emmet


“Would you care for something to drink?” asks Shan ignoring Emmet and starting to get up


“Sure” replies Ted as Tanya hands him a glass and winks at Shan


“Thanks Tanya,” hisses Shan crossing her legs


“No problem,” Smiled Tanya innocently “she really is elegant”


“Okay, why is he doing that dancing thing?” Asks Shan


“That’s his victory dance he just scored a touchdown,” replies Ted


“Does he have to do that every time he scores?” Politely asks Shan


“No! It’s not a requirement Shan, gosh,” snaps Emmet “he is just showing off”


“She’s a proper lady, she doesn’t know,” snapped Ted in her defense


“Oh shut up! You don’t know anything about her!” Exclaims Emmet half laughing


“Excuse me for having manners,” glared Ted than smiled “You look very nice today, Shan”


“Thank you,” blushed Shan even though she was very annoyed


“See Emmet, that’s how you treat a lady, and I bet he wouldn’t do anything reckless with her in the car ether” smirked Tanya who still had not forgiven him


“Of course not, I’d be very careful, that is if I were to ever be lucky enough to take you.” flirted Ted


“Hey what would you know? That semi came out of nowhere!” Exclaims Emmet


“Yea, you really have to watch out for those crazy parked semis,” adds Bella sarcastically


“A parked semi came out of nowhere and hit you…,” repeats Ted than smiles at Shan “I know this spot; it is really pretty at sunset. Of course not as pretty as the company would be”


“Don’t mind him Ted, he’s pretty messed up” smiles Shan than whispers just loud enough for Ted and Emmet to hear “he has a thing for Seth”


“Hey! I told you it’s not like that!” Exclaims Emmet getting mad


“Hey look! He’s doing that dancing thing again does that mean he scored again?” Asks Shan


“See! You made us miss the play!” huffed Emmet


“It’s not my fault your attention span is short” snaps Shan


“Enough” scolds Esme shaking her head


“I’m sorry Esme,” sighed Shan ashamed that she had come down to Emmet’s level


“How about you two go ahead, the sun will be setting soon,” smiles Carmen


“Thank you Carmen” replies a very grateful Shan


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Carlisle said it might help, if I started a journal, a way to deal with all of me thoughts. Therefore, I guess I will begin me first entry with this week’s events. Ted was right the sunset was beautiful, though he is cute and very sweet, he is a bit too sappy for me taste. It’s Emmet that keeps getting on me nerves. He followed us when we went for our drive, and started making all these weird growling sounds, followed by grunting and some kind of sound I guess he thought would pass for hooting. Maybe Carmen is right, maybe he is a whew bit taken with me. After all, he started all the noises as Ted tried to kiss me. I knew of course it was Emmet but Ted sure didn’t, he was quit scared and decided it be best to get me home. Then the buffoon raced across the road as if he were some wild animal, boy that really freaked Ted out.  That was when I quit speaking to Emmet all together. I was so mad at him. I guess Eleazar is right. I do need to get better control of me temper. At least some good came out of it; turns out Emmet can’t stand me being mad at him. So of course, I used that to get even with him over the next few days. It was fun because everyone joined in to help. Jasper would send waves of lust, when ever Seth came around, Rose made the damage to me truck seem so much worse than it really was, and Kate loved talking about how cute, and sweet Ted and I looked together, calling him my Teddy bear. It made Emmet insane. O, and Edward he is so sweet, he would tell us what Emmet was thinking that way we knew what to use next. Emmet attacked both Jasper and Edward quite a lot, but we all are having a lot of fun making him pay.


Rose has finally got my beautiful truck restored. I don’t be believing how great of a job she did! She even repainted my beloved eagle on the hood. You can’t tell that Emmet rammed it into the back of that semi. It has been about a week now, and other than Carlisle’s test and us terrorizing Emmet not much has happened. I sure do miss me home. It helps having Eleazar, Tanya, Carmen, and Kate here. However, it’s still not the same. I be glad to be heading home soon.


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“Shan, it’s our last night here. I want to go dancing. Please? We don’t want to go without you,” pleads Kate


“You can go dancing in Denali,” argues Shan


“Yes, but think of all the cute guys here,” Pleads Kate “You can invite Ted,”


“Fine” sighs Shan, “I suppose, but no Ted, okay, I really don’t feel like the drama”


“Wahoo!” exclaims Kate


“Boys, beware, she is on the lose,” laughs Tanya


“I have the perfect outfit for you!” squeals Alice


“No, I be picking me own clothes” replies Shan


“But look its cute! And you can wear your boots that you like so much” argues Alice “it’s my last chance to pick out your clothes, are you really going to deny me that joy?”


“It is cute… oh alright,” sighs Shan smiling, Alice could make herself sound so pitiful when she wanted. 


“Where are you guys heading to?” asks Esme as the girls came down


“We are going dancing,” replies Kate


“Dancing, that sounds fun,” grinned Emmet


“Who, invited you?” hissed Tanya


“Well you ladies look stunning,” smiles Eleazar “Can you go through a metal detector Shan?”


“Metal detector? No. why?” questions Shan


“All the clubs, in Port Angeles have metal detectors,” smiled Bella


“Why can’t she go through a metal detector?” asked Carlisle


“I have to leave me Blades?” blurted out Shan “I can just stay here; I need to rest for the trip home anyways”


“Blades?” asks Emmet


“Oh come on just ditch them already!” urges Tanya shaking her head


“O fine” hissed Shan starting back up to her room


“Why are you going to your room, how many knives is there?” asked Emmet “Just take them out and let’s go,”


“Urge,” moaned Shan removing a blade from each of her boot tops and setting them on the table by the door


“Nice knifes Shan” admires Jasper picking up one of the well-crafted knives “very well balanced”


“Great now let’s go, I’m driving,” grinned Emmet as everyone one yells “No your not”


“Hurry up, Shan,” urges Kate as Shan reaches behind her to remove the two crisscrossed swords from her back


“Are those swords?” exclaimed Emmet


“All of them Shan” orders Eleazar


“But…” begins Shan


“No buts, hand them over,” grins Eleazar shaking his head


“Fine,” sighs Shan, pulling yet another one from her waistband, and from under her long hair.


“One more Shan” impatiently waits Tanya


“But… underwire!” defends Shan


“All of them Shandalynn” growls Eleazar


“Fine” hisses Shan pulling a final one from the top of her blouse


“Sheesh a guy could lose his hand if he’s not careful,” mumbles Emmet


“Okay, seriously,” exclaims Edward shaking his head


“I would be more worried about losing my head if I were you,” growls Eleazar


“Can we go already?” urged Kate


“Have fun,” added Esme as the group headed for their cars


“Shan, now where are you going?” hollered Rose


“I have to change me boots,” growled Shan


“But, the outfit!” squealed Alice


“So that is what she had done to the boots,” laughs Tanya


“Me blades in me boot toes,” muttered Shan running up stairs in answered to every ones question


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The time flew by fast, it seemed liked they had just gotten to the club when they heard the finally call for the night.


“I still have four really cute guys that want a dance,” grumbled Kate


“Thanks for the dances,” grinned Emmet as they walked to the cars “you really are very good”


“Its fun dancing with you,” smiled Shan


“Did you hear that?” asked Edward still trying to listen


“Yea, I’m fun to dance with,” gloated Emmet


“Not that,” grumbled Edward “Sounds like someone is in trouble”


“Over there in the alley way,” replied Jasper


“Stay here Shan,” ordered Emmet


“Yea, like that will work,” hissed Tanya


“They are planning to feed,” whispered Edward


“They are cold bloods?” asked Shan


“I told you to stay,” growled Emmet turning towards Shan, who just glared at him


“Shut up, they heard Shan’s heart,” hissed Edward still reading their minds, “They’re confused”


“Well what are we waiting for, let’s kick some tail,” grinned Emmet rushing into the alley


“Urge, does he ever use that pea brain of his,” hissed Tanya following so she could cover his back


“Find another alley, this one is busy,” growled the leader


“You’re going to draw attention feeding in town,” replied Edward “the Volturi are already watching Port Angeles.”


“Yea, so are you going to let these people go or do we make you,” grinned Emmet already bored with the chatter


“Shut up Emmet, let’s see if we can’t do this peacefully,” hushed Shan


“Go back to the car,” growled Emmet “If you get hurt Eleazar is sure to rip my head off this time,”


“Who is your sweet smelling friend,” asked the other male


“No one,” hissed Tanya “This is not going to end well.”


“They seem awfully protective, for her to be a no one,” replied the woman to her leader “Such elegance, and beauty, and not even a cold blood,”


“I am Percy; this is Ember, and Chase.” Introduced the leader staring at Shan


“What are you looking at,” growled Emmet


“Easy, they only seem to be curious,” whispered Edward


“Emmet, shut up,” hissed Jasper sending waves of calm over him


“I’m Edward, this is Bella, Kate, Tanya, Shan, Emmet, and Jasper,” replied Edward “this is our territory”


“We heard that there was some that lived around here. Though nothing was said of her,” spat Percy in Shan’s direction


Shan used the hand signs that she had taught Kate and Tanya to let them know that there were more on the roof above them. Both nodded and the three of them began to drop back.


“Where is your strange pet going?” hissed Ember


“We are not looking for a fight, just trying to protect our territory,” answered Edward knowing what the girls were doing


“You’re not a vamp.” Comments Percy to Shan “Doesn’t your knowing betray our kind? Is that why the Volturi is here?”


“I be a mixed blood.” Answered Shan


“Mixed blood, so that is why you’re his pet,” laughed Ember looking at Emmet


“Stop calling me a pet,” hissed Shan reaching behind her “me blades!” huffs Shan under her breath


“Well why not? They sure do treat you like one. I mean come on, can you even defend yourself. Your nothing but a half breed pet.” Smirks Ember


“Don’t let them get the better of you.” Signs Kate “keep your temper in check, she’s not worth it”


“How about we just take this half breed off your hands?” Offers Percy. “I mean as long as she’s not your pet, than she shouldn’t mean anything to you. We could kill her right now. Perhaps it would help with the Volturi problem?”


“Killing her would be a waste! She’s kind of cute, she could be a lot of fun,” grins Chase


“You’re a real sick o,” growls Edward and with that Emmet lunged fist first, right into Chases gut sending him crashing into the dumpster


“You’ll have to go though me!” exclaims Emmet


“I think we shall just have to buy her a nice pretty collar,” smirked Ember


The remark finished raising Shan’s temper. She leaped, twisted, and kicked her right in the gut, knocking Ember off her feet. Chase had recovered and now was lunging head first into Emmet in hopes of knocking him off his feet, only to have Emmet grab him and body slam Chase into the asphalt. Ember recovered quickly, plunging into Shan knocking her back into the corner of the building, only to be tackled herself by Tanya


“Bella, you guys get the humans out of here!” yells Edward as he and Jasper raced for Percy.


Ember landed a blow to Shan’s face, Shan grab her arm, twisted and sent her flying. Percy dodged, and weaved, trying to avoid both Edward and Jasper, but was not successful, Jasper connected with his jaw knocking him back, Edward kick and Percy went down hard. Chase was not fairing any better, Emmet had him down grinding his face into the asphalt explaining the proper way to treat Shan.


“Well done,” says a cold blood dropping from the rooftop, followed by four others. You my dear can hold your own,” he said smiling at Shan “very impressive,”


“Who are you?” hissed Jasper


“Aero said that you all were defiantly worth watching; now I see why. Though, you have made quite the ruckus, so if you don’t mind we will finish dealing with these three,” Smiled the leader


“Go ahead, we were just leaving” replies Edward as they regrouped


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“How bad do it look?” Shan asked Kate as they got out of the cars


“Your eye is really swelling up,” grimaced Kate


“Eleazar is not going to be happy,” replied Tanya taking Shan’s face in her hand and examining her eye


“I told her to go back to the car, you all heard me tell her like three times,” huffed Emmet


“The funny part about that is that you actually thought she would,” laughed Tanya


“Shan, you seem to be breathing kind of funny,” commented Jasper watching her


“I think a few of me ribs did not fair so well,” winced Shan


“We better go in, and let Carlisle have a look,” commented Bella


“Welcome home, did you kids have fun?” smiles Esme


“You should have seen all the cute guys,” smiled Kate sitting down


“Kate, have you ever seen a guy you didn’t think was cute,” asked Tanya trying to be funny


“Yea, really a couple of those guys you danced with, they were not the best looking bunch,” chimed in Rose


“I count sweetness, as being cute,” defended Kate


“Shandalynn, are you okay, your breathing is different?” asked Carmen trying to see her.


“I be fine,” replies Shan hiding behind Emmet and Alice


“No you’re not! I told her like five times to stay in the car but would she listen, no!” exclaimed Emmet


“Shut up,” hissed Shan


“You’re the most stubborn woman I have ever meant. You don’t listen, you wouldn’t have gotten hurt if you had stayed in the car like I told you too,” growled Emmet facing her


“Shandalynn, you’re hurt?” asked Carmen leaping to her feet


“I wouldn’t have gotten hurt if I had me blades, but no, everyone made me leave them,” shouted Shan followed by coughing, and her grabbing her ribs


“Urge, you are so stubborn, look at you,” scolded Emmet trying to figure out how to help her


“Move out of my way Emmet,” scolds Carmen smacking him in the back of the head “Carlisle, she is coughing up blood,”


“I be fine, I seem to have a few broken ribs is all,” smiled Shan


“I swear, you can ask them, I told her to stay in the car,” began Emmet watching Eleazar


“What happened?” growled Eleazar


“We stopped a group from feeding,” answered Tanya


“I told her to stay in the car, tell him Tanya,” defended Emmet


“Emmet, I tell you to protect her not cuddle her. She holds her own just fine in a fight,” grins Eleazar


“I’m confused,” muttered Emmet