What a wonderful world!

You're caught in the act

Did I ever get caught doing something bad? I guess not. The thing I hate to show people is when I massage painkiller jell on my aching foot. The odor is definitely unpleasant, and I really hate getting pity, so painkilling is something I prefer to do when alone.

I don't like eating rice for lunch like most other Bengalis, it really makes me sleepy. I'd prefer a light snack or some cubed fruits instead. So when my mom called saying: shall I bring you fish and rice? I straightaway said no. Had to eat it for dinner, though.

This stupid guy, my ex, wants to marry me, then wants me to stay at my parents' for four long years. He'd then take me to his own home after getting a job, he's still doing his undergraduate.

I'm a woman who prefers to have just one man throughout her entire life. According to religion, being intimate with anyone other than her own husband is a grave sin. Of course, a woman can be a friend to the opposite gender, but no romance with anyone save the hubby.

I know Allah has given me a lot, my own house, a loving family, my hobbies, job, everything. Am really thankful to Him. But sometimes, I do want to feel romantic for someone. Every girl wants to have her own family and children. I've always dreamt of handling my career and family together.

Unfortunately, I'd never be able to love anyone anymore. Not in the romantic sense. Because this stupid guy keeps on saying that he'd leave his family for me, which I'd never want. On the other hand, he also says that he'd have to face certain social problems if he marries me. So, marriage? No I guess. I'd rather have him as a friend.

My physical problem is not such a big one, still, we're considered as social burdens to some extent. I think it's wiser to remain single all throughout my life. One part of me will always crave to be called "Mom", but I guess all dreams don't come true!