Shellyville Continues

Agenda?

Hello my sunny pals,

I know why I am upset. I know why I am cranky and not all that happy at the moment. I don't like admitting that life is not pretty. I don't like accepting all of my reality.
My agenda was just to be happy. To take each day as it comes and make the best of it.

I really struggle with my own emotions. I try so hard to contain my own negative urges. I get sucked into ugly thoughts so easily. I know this about me and yet I get surprised when I am start to feel angry or depressed. As if I'm I am not supposed to have them. Why can't I be upset? Why can't I be sad for some of the things that are upsetting me?

I have to learn to accept all of my emotions. Even the sucky ones. I have to admit I am doing the best I can and I will get past this. Life is a moving target. I am changing every single day. I am getting it done.

I am trying to find the balance between my fantasy dreams and my reality. I am trying to have everything and its not happening that way. It is time for me to dig deep and get into my peace. To look at myself with love.

I do love myself. I am proud of my accomplishments and I am hosting my own celebration party tomorrow night after graduation! I am going to have my closest friends over. I am gonna sit around, laugh, and have fun. I am going to go shopping today for fresh flowers and sweet treats. I am going to embrace my loving self and enjoy all of my creative and amazing emotions!

I am full of it!

Love,
Michelle