Shellyville Continues

Set to expire?

Hello my sunny friends,

My membership is set to expire in 5 days. I know I need to renew it. I know that I want to keep my blog and keep my poems posted. I just don't want to part with my money.

I always struggle with this decision every time it comes up. I am always happy that I have my blog. I am always excited to be apart of Writing.com.

I know I am going to renew it. I am struggling with the balance of bills vs. income and my lack of it. It's a process of waiting and measuring my future against right now. In two years when I am fully licensed my life will be better. I will be able to work harder and smarter and get a bigger pay check.

I am laughing at that statement and let me tell you why...Never in my life time have I ever cared about a paycheck. I swear that is true. I have always believed I would get paid what I was worth and I had other people to help me cover my bills. I have never been so independent that I had to live off my own income.

I am not ashamed of that. It was my choice to be married and to have a partner. I am not going to ever count on someone else to do that for me so I have to do it now. I am good with it. It's just an adjustment and a major change of thinking.

I might struggle for a couple years while I figure it all out. I won't be getting any credit cards and I am only paying cash for what I need. I will go without some entertainment or extra food this month so I can afford my blog. I am really trying to measure everything that brings me joy and everything that needs to be paid. I still don't have health insurance and will try to get that by the fall.

It's a process and I am taking baby steps to figure it out!

Love,
Michelle