Shellyville Continues

What goes around?

Hey Sunshine,

Oh man when reality slaps me in the face. I can feel it. I am about to puke with the way I feel right now.I should have seen this day coming but seriously I had my blinders on.

I am a strong believer in karma and that things go around. Still, in my bizarre way I like to think that somehow I am excluded from that list. That what I have done onto others will be forgiven or at least changed around so I won't feel the true impact.

That couldn't be farther then the truth. I am sitting with reality today and I don't like it. I can't explain this. I can't even talk about it is so private.

All I can say is that I am sorry. I am sorry that I was ever in a position to hurt someone. That love never ends evenly.

I am truly sorry for any pain that I have ever caused anyone. I am sorry that life changes people and I made new choices. I changed.

I am living every day with those changes. I am living from this moment on with honesty and authentic feelings. I am not pretending, hiding or lying.

I might get hurt a million more times but I will never forget that I am a lover. I love with all my heart and soul. I love until it hurts. I love until I learn to let go. I love until I am loved.

I will be fine. I believe I have put enough good karma out in the world that this sharp pain I am feeling will go away and I will be left with a small dull pain that will remind me to live honestly.

Love,
Michelle