Shellyville Continues

Enough

Hello Sunshine,

I have had enough of feeling sorry for myself and I have had enough of being monkey in the middle. I am making some hard decisions this month to live authentic and do the right thing.

It is not easy and it makes me sad. Do you ever have to get mad at yourself before you make a change? I do. I have to get so sick and angry with myself that I can't take it anymore. I am so hard on myself but I have to be. No one else knows what it is like to live inside my head and my heart.

I need a break so I am taking it. I am going to do the right thing for me. I need to let go and move on. I need to ask myself why I even want to be in a relationship and why I want to feel rejected.

I may never get the answers I want but I will get the answers I need.

Love,
Michelle