Shellyville Continues

Half way done?

Hello Sunshine,

I am halfway done with this month. I didn't even come close to following my goals. I blew it on the first weekend and have been sliding down hill ever sense.

I guess the goals were set out for me to learn something...Yes, don't set unrealistic goals. Don't pretend to be someone you are not!

I am who I am. I will make mistakes but I also learn from then. I am trying something new and like everything else it takes time to figure it out and get it right.

I am happy with me and I am happy with the choices I make. I feel a little guilt over today but I will let it slide. I got asked to go boating with Sebi and he wanted me to bring the kids but they don't want to go so Brian is going to hang out with them. I am so lucky he is cool with doing that. I mean he could have said no!

Recently someone said that I was going to get back with Brian. I have actually heard that from a number of sources and it actually makes me feel sad when I hear that. I think it's so funny that just because we have remained friends and we still love each other doesn't make us a good couple. I don't think we would have ever gone this far to split up and end our marriage if there was ever any hope of us getting back together.

I do wonder why people think they can say that to me. I have to wonder if people really understand what divorce means. Even I have to admit I never knew what it was until now. I think you have to have gone through a divorce before you have any idea on how it will feel. And even then it is such a personal thing. Each marriage and divorce is unique sure it resembles a lot of the same emotions of loss and failure but also new beginnings and second chances.

I am learning from my mistakes and taking all my second changes and new beginnings with an open heart and soul.

Love,
Michelle