Shellyville Continues

The broken heart still beats

Hello sunshine,

I guess it is true, what goes around comes around. I am feeling the effects of my wayward heart.

I knew the timing was wrong. I knew something wasn't settled but my heart loved anyway. My heart did not plan ahead. My heart did not plan ahead for the day when we would need to take a break and step away.

I don't know if it is over but it feels like it. It might as well be with how I feel. I don't know if I can take a break. If I can continue to date other guys and not think of him.

How can I pretend? How can I be fake? I am one hell of an actress. I will find something to keep me focused so my heart continues to beat.

It's such a sad day when we are scared to love. It's such a sad day when we don't give in to our basic needs. I hope he finds the time he needs to figure it out. I can't do it for him.

I will be here loving him. I will be here living my life to the best of my ability. I will be here missing him.

Love,
Michelle