Shellyville Continues

I won't say no if it's offered.

Hello my sunny pals,

I wonder how long I can keep my true feelings hidden. I wonder how long I can go living on this limited budget. I have to make some serious changes.

Speaking of changes my kids are here this week and I am always amazed at how much abuse moms can take. Savanna is always saying I am annoying and touchy-feeling. Jackson is just mad that I am here and actually telling him NO! Being consistent with two households is the hardest thing I have ever done.

I have so much guilt about the divorce now. Esp sense Jackson is so mad at me. I have pain now that I see I am not giving my kids what they are used too. However, I am not going to beat myself up. I am not going to allow the changes to influence how I am. I do parent with my feelings. I do love my kids. I do love myself.

I am taking it one day at a time. That is the best I have to offer!

Love,
Michelle