Shellyville Continues

I am gonna try!

Hello October!!

Only 14 more days and Jackson will be 11! I know he should be turning 16 or 17. I swear he is an old soul trapped in a young boys body. Maybe someday he will catch up to his mind. He will have a chance to get to do what he wants and won't be so against his parents rules.

I hope he can make it that long! Honestly, at times I seriously wonder. He is hell bent on playing violent video games and I am highly against it. I don't know how to get him to understand that just because his friends are doing it, that he should be able too. I hate that whole argument. If his friends were all smoking pot and drinking would I want him to do it? NO!

I find the contrast in my children to be confusing. Here Savanna is an individual, not a leader or a true follower and Jax is a follower. He wants to be like everyone else and he never can. He knows he thinks different and he acts different. So why can't he embrace that wonderful gift he has?

I am exhausted trying to help him and I am exhausted with my own personal life. I have some changes to make all on my own!

I will make it! I will because I am blessed. I have God's love and I have my own!

Love,
Michelle