Shellyville Continues

So Close!

Hello Sunshine,

Ever been so close to having something that it seems even farther away? My challenges lately have been tipping me over the edge but I keep holding on. I am so close to having it all and it keeps slipping away.

Who am I? A great question. I am Michelle.

On a good day I could describe a million positive things about myself. I am also very vulnerable right now. Which apparently isn't so attractive. I am however real. I love openly. I express my doubts and concerns. I am foolishly connecting my income with my self-worth. It is the dumbest thing I have ever done!

I wonder why am I being so hard on myself? Why am I struggling to be content?

Why do I keep looking outside for my answers inside? I have been one very spoiled woman. From childhood on. I have been taken care of. I love my independence. I like the changes I have made. I will continue to make more changes as I age and come to terms with my life. I thought I was on the right path but I am not.

It's time to stop the pretending and face reality. I deserve better and I need to treat myself better!

I love you Michelle!

Love,
Michelle