Shellyville Continues

Distance is a wonderful thing

Hello Sunshine,

In a short amount of time I have figured out a lot of things. I look back on last year and I still feel like my head and heart were in the wrong place. Timing is everything.

I know I never wanted to hurt anyone and I sure never thought I could hurt myself. I have learned the hard way what my heart and soul needs. I wonder if we can do it differently this time around or am I only fooling myself more?

We still need to have that talk. We still need to get the words out that I am feeling. I still need to express myself but wonder if I will have the nerve.

Whatever happened to being in a mutually respected relationship? Whatever happened to communication and figuring it out? I know I have to figure this one out. I have to ask some hard questions and I need to be ready to hear his answer.

I will see him soon. It's getting harder to stay away. It's getting harder to find excuses that are real. I miss him but the distance was good for me. I needed the break. I needed to step away and take care of myself.

In a few more days I will decide if the distance will grow or be a memory.

Love,
Michelle