Shellyville Continues

Keep Laughing

Hello Sunshine,

Yes I have a mental disorder. Yes, I have unexplained emotions but the one I understand the most is my need for laughter. It was the greatest crutch I learned as a child.

In my need to escape pain I laughed. In my need to put away tears and hurt I laughed.

So as an adult I still hide behind laughter. I still use it as a coping skill. I still use it as if the world depended on my laughter everyday. If I did not laugh I would be miserable. I don't want to be sad. I don't want to be pissed and angry. It is no fun to live that way. I need a better outlet for my emotions and love.

Love is here and I will use it to be a better person.

In my laugh the sound of tears splash in the background but I am used to the noise.

Love,
Michelle