Death and Relations Can be Painful

Creating My Future

I guess, the saddest thing I have learned in my long life is that I cannot predict my future!

What a surprise! How disappointing. I can conduct trend analysis; make predictions, share my general thoughts, but I cannot predict my future. What a nasty blow, and I so thought that would be helpful in my planning. 

Who would have dreamed that my health would be so delicate at this time in my life? Who would have thought that my finances would be what they are today?

Woke up this morning in my right mind.  I hoped, prayed, and even expected to wake up, but I did not know that I would. Such uncertainty.  At twenty-one, I never gave such matters much thought.  Now, I think about them often.

However, beyond my sadness is the joy of not knowing. I am not sure that being able to predict my future would make me a better person or a happier one. At this stage in my life, a little uncertainty makes life a little more interesting. It actually challenges my mind to try to get in all the living I can now, today, this very minute because I do not know what the future holds, and I want to be sure that I am ready to meet my maker when my time comes. It pushes me to be a little more loving, a lot more forgiving, and a little less judgmental of everyone else.

My daughter told me that her husband spends six months minding his business, and the other six months staying out of other people's business. Not a bad idea, if the time is spent making you a better person!

God's divine purpose got me here, and I am sure it will sustain me as long as I remain here.  So, I guess I will just have to perk up, and get with it because so far, I have today!  That's just enough time to make a dream come true, create a legacy, stop by and see a friend, or just sit here and write.  My future is in my hands today!