PinkBubbles

PINKER..I think??? Love does that for you.

“Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.”

Read more: http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/showthread.php?t=198994#ixzz32scOo8Fz

This woman is amazing. You will see what she does and know that she has, for no know reason to me, saved countless lives.

I also want to add a page about alcoholics. Unfortunately, that page with the info is on my ex's laptop. I will provide it in another blog as soon as I can find it. Please do not try and change, save, or believe that a true alcoholic will ever change their spots. They become shells of who they once were. I lived with one, who destroyed his entire family and I was an easy target because he had no love for me. I am a broken bird as it is and I have a bad habit trying to fix others problems so I do not have to focus on myself.

I have been here before...this depressed state. I have an excellent doctor now. I have been in therapy for 3 years but have not been able to get to core issues because life just freeking keeps happening. I seriously think they would have to lock me up in a padded cell to fix me. LOL They won't do it. They won't even call me crazy...but at times, my god, I certainly feel it.

To Sisco, my lil guy, who knew when I took you on to mentor that you would be the one who would teach me. This site (whether or not it is just a kind word, a person helping another...it is magical.

I have been a member here forever. I leave and come back, but never stray from from home. I am not sure where this path I am on now is headed. I am getting through one ...now it is not minute by minute, but hour by hour and eventually, days by days until I am no longer a pathetic green (sorry for your green lovers:P) blob but a pink bubble. One who can float and rise above this all and can go on to help others without hurting myself....


This is all I can say for now. But I felt something should be said. I know there are others who have it worse..sick how that can make you be able to carry on. I have always been told I was strong. I have fought my entire life...from the day I was born and my mother wanted to kill herself and me..yet she kept 4 other children...oh, she died while I was on the surgical table. you just can not make this sick crap up...anyways...I will continue to try and survive...

and I WILL always pay it forward...somewhere, somehow....