My Journal #2

Aug 19 Looking in a dark tunnel

It seems my fears have been realized. My position will soon be eliminated. As I said in my last post/rant that when I was hired it was to call customers and clients for new business. I was so good at it that they now call me with business. I'm no longer needed as the business is set (in my bosses mind) and they are getting all kinds of business without my intervention.

When he heard I might take my skills out into the field and "shop" the business I would otherwise hand over, he was concerned it would be a conflict of interest as my husband works in the field doing somewhat the same a I am doing.  HMMM??

If he doesn't think I can make any money doing that job and it isn't of value to him to keep my doing it full time, then he shouldn't have to worry about what little business I might find on my own.  I think there's a concern that its possible I WILL get business and shop it getting the best price for my customer.  Then what?  He's in a pickle jar. 

What I don't want is for him to keep me on in the position with an axe over my head and a rope around his neck.  This has to be a mutual benefit for both of us. He has to feel that I am a valuable employee to the company and worth my pay or forget it.  Just because I know what I'm doing and he has a perception about it, isn't my problem. 

He was taught that the value of an employee is what they know about the product or has a skill that would be difficult to replace. Like the girls that "work" here. One is the shipping/?payable person. She sits all day in her office and piddles around doing what the 'accountant' should be doing.  The other one plays on her computer and runs back and forth talking to the other one five or six times a day.  He has no clue because he isn't in this office and is 1200 miles away. The one who should be reporting all this isn't or the boss isn't listening. 

All I can say is I like what I do, but if it isn't valued then I'll go elsewhere.