Wondering about my Wanderings

My Stomach Aches

As often happens after a good sleep my stomach aches. It is as if it is telling me that I am not eating right or maybe not treating my body right. "I cannot stomach it".

I spent a lot of time with my grandkids yesterday. It was a good thing. After that I spent too much time wondering why I rarely if ever see my other grandkid. I wonder why my son Tim does not make effort to make a connection. He is more independent than Mike in that regard and no doubt has his own reasons. I think most of the reason revolves around trying to please his wife and her family.

So I sit here feeling really awful about something I have no control over. I will be in a caregiving situation with Ray and be bereft of control once again. To be honest I believe I am working too much and do not know how to make myself slow down. It feels good to pay down debt and yet in the process I am also chewing up my body.

I pray to God for discernment. Help me to put the right things into my heart mind and soul God so that my spiritual stomach feels full and ready to provide comfort and nurture to others.