Slurred Emotions

For Her

1-20-08

And I want to let her know
but I can't.
It's too new;
almost too unreal
for me to wrap my head around.
Am I sure?
As sure as I've ever been
that this could one day happen,
even if not right now.
I've got to find a way
for her to see
that these aren't just silly
fluctuations of feelings
and let my arms around her
speak for themselves
in order to overcome
every existing barrier between us
on the way
to the comfort, love,
stability and happiness
we both deserve
and long achingly after.
And I want to let her know
it's okay
to love
uncontrollably and unconditionally
with my heart wrapped in her sleeve
and set free by tender kisses
morning, noon and night,
but how?
I'm sure she's unaware,
or maybe has some idea,
or whatever's holding her back
has her so tightly possessed
that she offers me maybe a tiny second thought.
And I have to let her know
but not at the loss
of too many good things
over too short a timeframe.
Day by day by day
she'll know,
she'll have to know.
If she doesn't see it
she'll feel it.
At least I hope so.