Shellyville Continues

Not in the habit yet...

Hello Sunshine,

I am not in the habit of writing everyday. I will get back to it someday. I can see that I have enjoyed my thoughts and have been keeping myself busy by ignoring my inner poet.

I wonder if ignoring the inner poet is why my anger is boiling? No, my anger is boiling because I have once again allowed something to happen with him. I am so over him now.

I keep saying that I know. But this time it feels honest and like I can actually carry off my wishes. I don't have time for his insanity. I don't have time for his games or his lack of understanding me. I don't care anymore about being with him. I have finally learned to be independent. I have it covered.

Getting paid is making me a bad ass and I love it!

To finally feel like my hard work is going to pay my bills. I am going to get the heck out from under this wicked spell of poorness. I feel strong. I feel confident and sure that all my hard work is going to pay off. One sweet day I will pull it all together. It starts with my heart.

Getting in touch with my core values again. Rebuilding a new life. Making choices that support my future and keep me moving forward and not running backwards anymore.

I see so many fun things ahead. I got this!!

I am so happy with my choices and last weekend blew me away emotionally but after every storm I wake up and move on. I am ok right here and now.

Love,
Michelle