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February Prompt #19

19. What is the most difficult choice you have ever had to make?

Hmmm...I would have to say that would be when I divorced my ex-husband. We had been married for 11 years..since I was 18 years old..it was a rocky marriage, we argued a lot and had hardly any communication....when I had my youngest and she was special needs, we just pushed everything aside and focused on her. Lived a marriage of convenience....and set our marriage on a back burner, which took a huge toll on it. It was hard to decide to divorce for many reasons of course...but the biggest one was the decision for me to take a stand and get myself and my kids out of a marriage that was not a good one, for anyone involved. I just did NOT want my kids growing up thinking that a relationship was made up of arguing and living as roomates. That is not love. So I stood up...I filed for a divorce and for the first time ever in my life I moved into my own place with just me and the kids and that is how is has been for the past 8-9 years now! Moving out onto my own, knowing I was giving up the security of having a house and not having to worry about money..and to me that was the better choice!

I learned how to make it by struggling and I still do, but I am a BETTER person for standing up and making that choice! I have raised the kids alone and I am so proud of the young adults they are becoming. I think that making that hard decision was the BEST decision for us. It showed me that was not how a marriage was supposed to be and I just would not stand for it!! It led me to met an amazing man that I am now engaged to who treats the kids and me wonderful!!