The Seasonal Construct Cup

April Prompt #18

Mental Health

Deep into the darkness
the hell I live in
The chaos in my mind
takes over control
Waking up each day
not knowing who I am
Medicine helps some
there is no cure
What I have is invisible
but killing me inside
Just because I don't look sick
doesn't mean I am not
Flip and flop
Back and forth
Evil and Angel
Sustain the rage
keep it locked up
For if it was released
I fear the unknown
I am never alone
the voices are always there
Sometimes they let me have control
but only for a short time
I can never clear my mind
there is too much going on
There is never a quiet moment
constant and consistent
Chatter and evil
spewed forth from my mind
I tell them to shut up
they just laugh at me
Telling me they own me
I will never get away
This hell is my life now
there is no way out
I am trapped inside my own mind
rattling the cage to get out
I want to be myself
not who they want me to be
I have my own mind and ideas
my goals and dreams
I will be damned if they ruin it
or try to take it from me
I will fight this fight
alone if I must
I want my life back
and that is my goal
I will sustain from giving up
I will continue onward
Step by step
day by day
I will walk this journey
because it is mine to walk