My Thoughts: when the mood strikes.

SET FREE

         In the mid- to late 80s, I deliberately walked away from ministry; and I have beat myself up over it.
 
         Just a few years ago, I wanted to write a poem about love.  I almost talked myself out of it by telling myself I knew nothing about love.  But God showed me I did and gave me the inspiration to write a beautiful poem called “Love is…”  It’s the best piece I have ever written.

         Another time, God gave me a prophetic Word.  As I waited for the appropriate time to speak, the Pastor’s wife said---“After this service, not another word needs to be spoken.”  In my heart I knew God had another Word; so, despite her proclamation which caused me dread, I obeyed God and walked to the front of the church.  I whispered that I had a Word, and she stepped aside, allowing me to share it.  Before speaking, as I looked out over the congregation, in my heart I asked God show me this was Him by letting the people receive it and allowing me to watch.  I read the Word; and it hit them in a wave.

         Through the years, because I thought God gave up on me, I suffered recurring depression.  Today, I know this was a lie from the pit of hell that only bound me because I entertained and meditated on it.  This lie kept me in a stagnant place because I believed it.

         Today, God helped me see how he has used me despite my failures; and now I know the truth:  He has forgiven me, and my memories are evidence.

         His Word says, If we confess our sin, He is faithful and just to forgive our sin and to cleanse us from ALL unrighteousness.  1 John 1:9 (emphasis added)