Reflections and ruminations from a modern day Alice - Life is Wonderland |
"Blogging Circle of Friends " DAY 2462 August 16, 2019 Finish this sentence: Life is too short to… Life is too short to waste time thinking about the people who do not care about you. Over the last several months I have had this very same conversation with myself so many times it feels like I've adopted a new mantra. Truth is, I need the reminder because I sense myself still hurting, still grieving the losses of individuals whom do not deserve the validation of that heartbroken feeling. I am always surprised to find the indifference can wound me and that cruel words can break my heart in the already brittle places they've previous damaged. One day I will stop caring, I think. One day, they will not matter. They will not be able to reach me. One day I will be immune from the sickness of still loving them. "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" DAY 2065 August 16, 2019 Do you still keep a personal journal? How is it different from your blog, or are the two connected in some way? I have never possessed the discipline to keep a diary or daily journal. I have always just written when the need for it hit me but after becoming an adult and a parent, I always struggled with finding the time for that. Blogging became my way to try to regiment time to work on the craft. I hoped that by building in an obligation for myself, that I would put some effort into developing the discipline I would need to become a bonified author one day. Instead I found blogging to me more about me, literally. It has become sort of really cheap therapy, an outlet for me to create my own space in the world. Truth is, I doubt anyone even reads my blog but it feels good to put it out there all the same. I mean, it sometimes feels terrifying, but I think that is good for me. |