Down the Rabbit Hole

Lamely Unconscious

30 Day Blogging Challenge
PROMPT November 9th
Write a stream of conscious entry starting with the words “I wish...”

Once again I am catching up...but I'm determined for myself to check off each day on this challenge. I need to develop some discipline as a writer so this challenge affords me a chance to work on that.

I wish that it wasn't already Monday. I do not feel as if the weekend provided adequate down time enough to prepare me for this week. I'm not ready for the departmental meeting Tuesday morning, nor the PTO meeting on Wed evening, or the family dinner with my husband's family on Thursday. This morning I ordered a large coffee. It is only 9:50am and I only have two fingers of cold coffee remaining. It is not enough to get me through this day. I have this lovely secretary. She is an older lady, a real sweetie but she likes to talk to herself, narrate her tasks and read me joint emails before I have a chance to open and read them for myself. She is reliable and always willing to help so I get upset with myself for having so little patience with her quirks sometimes. I am just someone used to working alone I guess. I've been at this job now for over two decades...twenty-two years. I was kid when I started, literally. Now I am old and jaded...not really but I am dealing with a bit of career crisis and there is a large confrontation brewing that I have tried to stave off with busy work. It makes me anxious though. I know I have to bite the bullet and say my piece soon, I'm slowly gearing up and fortifying myself I guess.

I think I do much better writing to a prompt. These days my conscience seems overtaxed and distracted. This lame attempt isn't helping me to feel better unfortunately so I think I will just stop here.