Porthole

Alone or lonely?

“I think it's very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not defined by another person." — Oscar Wilde

I commented on QPdoll is Grateful 's blog:

Growing up I had to share a room with two siblings. I learned how to sit in the closet, stay up late after everyone else had gone to bed.

Now I live in two rooms in silence. I find that best. I can always make connections when I wish. I seldom feel isolated ... mostly on other people's holidays.

Traveling? Hard to sleep the last four nights in Taichung. I think I have the room at my hostel in Lukang to myself. I need a break and dark and quiet works for me.

But perhaps that's not what Oscar Wilde meant. I have always craved a close friend. But... mostly I felt isolated and lonely. Even now, when I have friends around the world, I wish I could get closer. My main issues? Trust and fear of rejection.

I did meet someone on this trip that I wish I'd met growing up. I should be happy we met. But it's sad. I feel old and most of those I connect with are young. Maybe they'll remember me?

Regardless, I don't mind being alone... but lonely sucks.

I finally found the music from "My Roommate is a Fairy Fox" with subtitles in Chinese (and Spanish):

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