PORCH PONDERINGS

Cataracts

I am going to get my cataracts fixed starting tomorrow. Now I've known about this problem for some time, about five years now. And just recently I started developing problems. So I get to have the surgery.

I have to tell you having this done is not making me comfortable. I'm trying to be okay with this. I'm trying to be all light and airy and "oh it's okay and it'll be fine" but hey, you only have two eyes,

Then today someone comes to see hubby. He is helping us remodel the house. So he had eye surgery. It didn't go so good, He called after to say "It's not going so good," and they say "Well, it's just something you have to live with." Well, now he's had a detached retina and now has worse vision than before. Like I needed to hear that the day before I go to the eye doctor!

I am someone who likes to write. I enjoy working on the computer. I love to read. I enjoy doing knitting and crocheting, sewing. What if I can't do those things I most enjoy again in the same way? I gotta tell you, that would send me straight to the loony bin. After all my medical stuff, brain surgery, car accidents, yada yada, this would be the icing on the cake with the cherry on top.

But then I have to trust in God and the surgeon. I have to trust that whatever happens it is all in God's plan. As a Christian, He has my best interests at heart and I have to believe that.

So that is what I will be thinking and praying about tomorrow. When that laser hits my eye and there is no turning back.