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I've started an appendix (I no longer have one personally) to keep track of my Space Cadet journals for Space Blog. It's a work constantly under construction. Mind the mess.
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November Realities "Welcome To My Reality Forum"  Prompts for November 2023: 1. What kind of day are you having, and why? 2. What's your favorite color, place, food, book, song, or movie, and why? Orange, garden, kao pad, "Cry, the Beloved Country", Ombra Mai Fu, "Babette's Feast" 3. What do you like to do? How does it make you feel? 4. Where are you happiest? Describe that place. 5. What's something you're good at? What makes you good at it? Traveling. Preparation and a Plan B. 6. What do you consider to be your culture, and how do you feel about it? Global. It's a bigger box. 7. What would you change about yourself or your life? Is there a way for you to change it? 8. What is your relationship like with various members of your family? Not very close. No problems... just distance. 9. If you have brothers or sisters, how are you similar to them or different from them? What about with your friends? I'm more like my older than my younger sister. My friends are eclectic. 10. What are your views on religion? More inclusive, peaceful, equitable. Like DEI. 11. What keeps you up at night worrying? Are your worries realistic? Is there anything you can do about them? 12. Do you have a philosophy of life? If so, what is it? If not, what is your method for making important decisions? 13. In what areas are you optimistic, and in what areas are you pessimistic? 14. What are your most prized possessions? 15. Who is someone you miss? Gary. Kevin. All the lost loves of my life. 16. What is something someone else has that you envy? Describe it and your feelings about it. 17. What is a book, movie, song, or television program that has influenced you, and how? 18. What is a mistake people often make about you? My name. My gender. 19. What's something you disagree with about the way you were raised? I was smothered and not taught the family secrets and how to handle common situations. 20. What's your favorite: season, color, place, or food? Describe it. Spring and Autumn. Kansas. Journal prompts - daydreams 21. Describe your dream: job, man/woman, house. Whatever your dream is that you wanna share. 22. How would you like your life to be when you're older? I am older. I didn't foresee any of this. 23. What would be the guest list at your dream party? What would the various guests talk about? 24. What magic power would you like to have? How would you use it? What would it feel like? As a child my power was invisibility. 25. If you won the lottery, what would you do? No idea other than to set most aside for a year. At this age? No longer. 26. What's a country you'd like to visit? How do you imagine your time there? Been to 45. Rwanda, Malawi, Senegal, Burkina Faso. Colombia, Cuba. Mongolia, Kazakhstan, Turkmenistan. Timor Leste, Kiribati, Vanuatu. Kentucky... 27. A dream in a tear 28. Under a star near the sea 29. Warped and wrinkled 30. Curly fries and plastic bow ties 31. Attention! Attention! Read all about it… 32. The truth often hurts 33. Blowing kisses in the storm 34. She grew and then he knew 35. Pages of perfection 36. Damp dangling tresses 37. Was it a laugh or a cry? 38. Dull knives and feisty fellas 39. Molten kisses 40. To the moon and back Honeymooners! 41. A tale of turbulence While flying or daily drama? 42. Disappointing disasters 43. Lipstick secrets 44. Grandma’s medicine 45. Something lost, something given 46. Evening hush When the night blooms and the moths gather. 47. Slices of life 48. Voyage views 49. Peculiar happenings 50. Crumpled sheets and tousled hair Morning. 51. Shoved into a closet My childhood dreams. 53. The best part 54. Food stamps fortunes 55. Finding rainbows between the clouds On a soft day. The sun burns in Isan. 56. What does your character do all day? Does he or she have a job or go to school? 57. What type of job does your character have—or what school subject does he or she enjoy most? 58. What is your character’s favorite holiday? Why? 59. What is your character’s favorite type of music? Why? 60. How does your character sound when he or she laughs? 61. Write a story using all the fall colors. 62. Write about doing Halloween when you were a kid. 63. Do you love it when the time falls back? No. I think the clock-time should never change. It's needlessly disruptive. 64. Do you love it when the time springs forward? 65. Are you glad that they are talking about doing away with daylight savings? Yes. 66. What does "one day at a time" mean to you? 67. Share something about you, that no one knows. I keep my secrets close. My family taught me to trust no one. 68. November Rain In the north... yes. Here... I wish. 69. What are the rules you live by? 70. What do you love most about Thanksgiving? 71. When do you start your Thanksgiving gatherings? 72. Do you watch Christmas Movies in November? No. I watch them whenever if at all. 73. Write about what is bothering you sometimes writing it out helps if there is more than one thing you can write all of it out. Don't worry this is a safe space. My journal is over 5 thousand pages. 74. Do you celebrate any holidays where you work? If you are in School do you all celebrate holidays? I tried. Forced to mostly celebrate the holidays of others. 75. Write 20 things that you have completed so far this year. 76. Tell me about your anger. Better to not share. "Welcome To My Reality Forum" |
(exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM.  5 november - 5 พฤศจิกายน  exor. 300/300/300/600 = 1500. 81 degrees. 08:25-08:55 obsv. ss&s. เที่ยง. 91°F 33°C Humidity: 59% Wind: 3 mph chat. walk. shop. coffee. PorP. bogs. NormaJean/Jeff/Steven/SpiritWriter NBpM. "NaBloPoMo#5" ytBL. "I feel you linger in the air" ep. 12 finale.It's based on the novel "Violet Rain". https://www.youtube.com/watch?app=desktop&v=0xKba-76atg 4 november - 4 พฤศจิกายน  เที่ยง. 90 degrees.Pannya left for SiSaket today to attend to family business. bogs. Evelyn/DLSpirit/Sox PorP. ss&s. chat. P'Rube... went out to eat; ate fish. foto. exor. 200/200/250/400 = 1050. 82 degrees. 20:10-20:32 tv25. เกียร์สีขาวกับกาวน์สีฝุ่น Not impressed so far. HS silliness. NBPM. "NaBloPoMo#4" 3 november - 3 พฤศจิกายน  exor. 300/300/300/300 = 1200; zigzagging twixt stations. 81-84 degrees. 09:20-09:50 obsv. haze blocking the horizon; pants falling down; fallen palm frond (not heavy); white (moth?) orchid; Tom in pink with something pink covering her head (hot); new orchid racemes; lichen. ss&s. mess. Pan really cleaned the kitchen. wash. Pan washing 1. clothes and 2. blankets.  87 degrees. Now 91 at 1:11 pm. Hot day. Porp. "Nong Prajak (Yellow ducky)" foto. New image here "Pannya and his yellow ducky." bogs. TJ/Mouse/Elizabeth/Jack chat. P'Rube, and guy from Korea. walk. Kinda. shop. noodles, soap, bananas... NBPM. "NaBloPoMo#3" tv31. Last episode of "I feel you linger in the air"  2 november - 2 พฤศจิกายน  exor. 300/50/150/300 = 800. 81 degrees. 10:09-10:29. ss&s. obsv. leaflets, puddle reflection, sun baking my shoulders, man watering, ladder, man working on transformer. Porp. [147] [148] bogs. Sonali/Judith/Dianne/Lani. chat. P'Rube, young Korean, guy from Dijon. walk. also, walking down 8 flights as electricity was off. rose. red. mrkt. bread, pork, greens. NBPM. "NaBloPoMo#2" 1 november - 1 พฤศจิกายน  exor. 150/300/300/250 = 1000. 82 degrees, sunny. Late, 09:43-10:09. ss&s. obsv. stiff breeze; blowing leaves; birds on a wire (drongos?); bird carrying long blade (to nest?); sun on my arms. PorP. ""Apples and Walnuts" O31 40w [134] 'combat'" เที่ยง. 88 degrees at 12:34. Pan got up, took meds, back to bed...  walk. ...and then Pan got up and wanted to go to Oshine... so we did. But it's very expensive and I wasn't hungry and he doesn't like it if I sit and don't eat so I left and walked back. Mosque, buns, flowers... Long but very calming walk. chat. with P'Rube. We went out to eat. I had fried fish, 79 baht.  bogs. Mike/Sandra/Richard NBPM. "November ... I'll try to remember. NaBloPoMo#1" To YCC: "It always bothers me that nationalistic maps don't understand that weather doesn't care about human constructs. I grew up in a border town. The other side had the same weather. Plus, most of the weather hit them before it hit us... Myopia isn't a virtue." ![Merit Badge in I Love WdC
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In other places it's a constant shuffle of alliances; but, even that is better than the two-party gladiator system Americans are so fondly attached to." 30 oktober - 30 ตุลาคม  exor. 200/200/300/300 = 1000. 82 degrees 09:08-09:30 sunny obsv. A flittery of flutterbys dancing in the sunbeams; breeze; loud jet, distant mumbling; loud a/c. ss&s. wash. Pan came home around 8 am. He's not 100% but took the wash down. Unfortunately, not everything got clean.  เที่ยง. 12:34 90 degrees. 14:50 rain at a slant. bogs. Flick/Stik/Dave walk. shop. cupcakes, bananas, fish, vegetables at Lotus. 2 croissants at Bellinee. PorP. "The Cleansing" Will need edit and submission. ""Death comes soon enough" O30 [133] 38w 'courage'" ytBL. Feel you linger in the air.Idea ... Liver-stench: Stacy was a blood-sucker — and proud of it! She could latch on to someone; and, if she was careful... they wouldn't even know it! She'd nibble with her fangs and paw with her needle-like claws. Out with the old and in with the new. She loved the sweetness, the saltiness, the umami of it all. The bitterness didn't bother her. She'd just let it flow through her. She'd draw out blood and ichor let her body take what it wanted. What she injected back would be better by far. She smelled her prey a mile away. She stifled the urge to spread her wings and hopped on her Vespa instead, dreadlocks flying. The stench was intoxicating. Whatever was wrong was very very wrong. It reeked this side of three-day-old carrion. Holy Helena, she hoped it wasn't halitosis. She wasn't up to badbreath and liplock today. Oh... she'd been there and done that and didn't want to do it again — even knowing that she could, should and would. She was wearing her red and black checkered frock just in case. She was proud of her profession; she didn't like stains. The laundromat didn't ask questions but they were expensive and pre-soaking and scrubbing by hand was tedious and time-consuming and – she had a party to go to tonight. She sashayed through town and there... There stood a Man. Buff, tan and beautiful. She smiled. Can I buy you lunch? Direct was always best. Give them no chance to think overly much or mis-construe her intentions. Her mouth had earned the title Miss Understood in 10th grade. They sat in conversation. His name was Karloff. Stacy always knew how to draw people out and always wore perfume that calmed. She had nicknamed it "Before the Bite" as a private joke. When she told people that some laughed. Some groaned. Some faked shock ... before she sunk her fangs into them. He opened up about how folks teased him to get a girlfriend. Stacy read the tell-tale signs of the self-imposed closet. Karloff would be tasty. But, he was shy and into guys. Hmm. Not a problem. She offered to give him a hickey in public so the town bullies would back off. A burly guy gave her the come-on eye. She gave him a stink eye. He started to snicker. Stacy just embraced Karloff in a head-lock and chowed down. A waitress laughed. Someone shouted "get a room". Karloff was bug eyed as she guided him to a back table where she could take her time. She would need time. This case was serious and complicated. Hepatitus never tasted good. Type A, type B, type C... never good... Karloff's liver was struggling. She sucked harder as her claws dug deeper into his thigh. Good. He did have nice thighs... She sent his blood into her body, told her liver to do its job, and quick. The waitress had a worried look on her face. Karloff was a special shade of pale. But... better than yellow, Stacy thought. Bad blood removed, good blood transfused, she sighed and gently let Karloff go. The look on his face was serene. He smelled better too. He shyly smiled. Got a brother? Stacy roared. Heads turned their way. But, Stacy didn't care. She'd done her good deed for the day. She'd be able to report this to the Grand Council. In a hundred more years they might even accept her penance. To huser:vivacious (Andra): "Social media has become tribal. I often feel the need to add "in my opinion" to make it clear that what I write is my "opinion" and nothing more. I renewed at WdC but I find folks more prickly than previous. Bunnies and unicorns are still the go-to for many. And on TikTok? Outrage and name-calling without any pause to think." Tried to post to Susan A on YCC: "The American people are divided. Congress is divided. The military has been denied proper reassurance that they matter (Tommy T...). Political games and the naivete and nativism of the last few years... But... this is why people admire autocratic leaders like _____ (five letters). Autocrats act and answer to no one. And the apocalyptic crowd just brings popcorn to the party." |
| (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. 29 oktober - 29 ตุลาคม exor. 200/200/250/300 = 950. 3 young women chatting on a bench; wispy clouds; after-taste of chicken liver; white butterfly; distant noise. cook. had to use up squid, chicken, daikon, onion, green-papaya. ss&s. เที่ยง. 88 degrees. Partly sunny. bogs. Rhychus/Stik/Hooves/NormaJean chat. pôod. P'Noy. walk. 2 wats... Nong Bua... lots of noisy firecrackers.  foto. wat วิดีโอ. moon reflected in water; prayers at wat. PorP. ""With the same sigh" O28 [132 ] 36w 'disposable' " Gnus: "‘This Is Not My Time:’ Mike Pence Suspends 2024 Presidential Bid" Re Speaker Johnson: https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/the-christian-nationalism-of-speaker-mike-john... 28 oktober - 28 ตุลาคม To Nikola: "A lovely cold front is moving in and a stronger one on the way this weekend! I'm ready to party. This year's theme is "Just Desserts" Sally is carving pumpkins, watermelons and rutabagas. Betty Lou makes a lovely mousse with dead-bird's custard and Buck will be stirring in the stew. Whoever finds an eyeball wins a price! Our neighbors have already entered their dens for the winter, too bad as they are a furball of fun, so they will come for the Spring event. I did make everyone sign a form stating no bullets. Even got them notarized. Notorious Buck used to do that... but alack, he had to be replaced. At least Michelle has better hygiene. A bit mousy but, except for Betty Lou, we all adore her. They'll be 13 of us in all, including Buck, but there will only be 12 at the end! Sally may propose to you-know-who, but my lips are zipped. She's proven to be deadly when crossed. No one is as stupid as Buck was... nevermore." Pan got very sick... disappeared for 2 hours. Helped him take meds. He was hot and cold all night, barely stirring. I kept checking on him. No sleep for me. exor. 200/100/250/250 = 800. Overcast. 09:44-10:03. Then napped. ss&s. chat. P'Nan. walk. shop. Coffee Blue#2 (89 baht for 27), strawberry Fanta (23 baht). agua. 10 liters. tv25. "Only Friends"27 oktober - 27 ตุลาคม ss&s. visa. New date... November 28th. Do I go to India, Cambodia, Malaysia, Kazakhstan? foto. yeller duckies. bogs. Steven/ chat. Rube and P'Nan. walk. Yes, Bellinee has croissants from the basic butter for 35 baht to fancier ones for 65 baht. exor. 300/100/150/300 = 850. After dark due to visa run. 79 degrees 19:42-20:01. tv31. Watch Dangerous on 25... but "Feel you Linger in the Air" is much more intriguing. To Steven: #2 "Gatekeeping... class, race, religion... able-ism... Aggravates me to no end. Here at WdC it's the E crowd that refuses to engage anything that offends them. Quite a few... but I mostly ignore them now as they have blocked me in the past." #1. "Just because some stupid kids at high schools think Bloody Mary is real does not make it a true belief; they also think Justin Beiber is talented. 555 = Ha Ha Ha  Very good answer. 1. you have a book 2. you know you can do another... (fiction/demons/???) Christianity either wiped out belief systems that didn't accept their exclusionary patriarchy or subsumed them and redefined them (Easter bunnies, Christmas trees, yada yada yada). Modern day Christians still have this belief that it's "Our Way or the Highway (to Hell)". But that's a different rant.  "26 oktober - 26 ตุลาคม exor. 300/200/200/300 = 1000. 11:20, very late. 88 degrees. Hot but it was overcast so not miserable. obsv. PorP. [143] chat. Rube and P'Nan. Bee at Lumphini. Rick and Joe. walk. rose. Pink-and-white. shop. day-old. bogs. Richard/Dragon/Sorji tv25. Kinda but bored. Will watch something else. Time is broken up by seasons, festivals, arbitrary segments that vary by region based on religion, customs, history... When moving to another 'world' do we long for the time we have lost or celebrate the time we have found? To Richard: "We eat rice almost every day. It's a staple in Thailand. Sri Racha is a beach town south-east of Bangkok. I'll visit some day. No shortage of hot chilies here. Pan loves suicide spice. I can't get near it. Oil... I don't use much in neither Montana nor Thailand. Olive oil shortage is real though. Neither of us drink alcohol. In Montana it makes sense to buy stuff on sale and have enough on hand for two weeks; but fresh food is cheap and readily available in Udon Thani. Markets everywhere and I go most every day." To Dragon: "May I assume that it's risky to post anything re students on social media? Americans have been fired over social posts that have nothing to do with work. 12 years old? If so... not as offensive as they can get!" To Sara (Sorji): "My writing slogs on. I've been stressed over my visa and our rent agreement ending Nov. 30. Made progress on both today. Pan may start a new job. If so... it impacts my purpose in staying here. I'm so easily overwhelmed. Neither of us own much here as the apartment was furnished. I have no plans to join NaNoWriMo... again. November is still one of the worst months for me to focus." "Speaker of a Broken House", "Angriest Otter", "We Never Knew of Darkness" 25 oktober - 25 ตุลาคม exor. 300/200/300/500 = 1300. 0839-09:12. 81 degrees. obsv. fragrant freshly cut grass; 3 boys chatting; jet roar; Tom stretching; neighbor walking; two small orchids. ss&s. เที่ยง. 88 degrees. pôod. with Pan. chat. Rube. Trip to Phnom Penh (fastest, easiest by Air Asia 3.000 baht) agua. 9 liters. walk. shop. chicken, squid, coffee, banana muffins.Death warmed over in the morning. Had to take a nap. I'm stressed over my visa renewal. To... "The rhymes seem forced. The a/a/b/b rhyme scheme doesn't work for me. The subject matter is 'preachy' and abstract. The rhythm doesn't work for me either. Abstract words like endeavor, necessary, gratefulness... are overly long and although they can be used they don't seem to fit well here. I can't hear how they add anything to the piece poetically. People will like it because it's a bit like a Hallmark Greeting Card. The "E" crowd here will give it a 5. Me? 2.5. I don't think it says anything new that we haven't heard a hundred times before. The title? Uninspiring. Can it be fixed? Perhaps not. One thing you can do is take your mind to a particular Thanksgiving or a meal of giving thanks, "Thanksgiving in May". Add specific details and actions that bring us into that space. "The Day After Thanksgiving, 1999"... or any year or place. "Caught in a storm Thanksgiving 2000" I remember that snowstorm where I lived. I wanted to visit my cousins and uncle. He died that Sunday. The Last Thanksgiving Dinner with Grover (the cat, the dog, the parakeet... make them real, not JUST a pet... add quirky details). "Broccoli for a Day of Thanks" or in my case in 1972... crackers (and sardines?). "Thanksgiving in Lonesome Creek" (home or not home or maybe that's the name of the outpost on Mars your great-granddaughter moved to...). Dream, create, spit it out in free verse. Rhyming forms don't work for everyone nor for every poem and they are NOT a higher art-form. A free verse with some rhythm, rhyme, alliteration and NO tortured verse is far superior. Good luck, K." 24 oktober - 24 ตุลาคม exor. 200/100/150/150 = 600. Late... 10:31... too late. 82 degrees but hot when the haze lifted. obsv. too worn out to care; b/w butterfly (no foto, flew); stiff breeze; haze or thin cloud cover; ennui; hose-watering; distant chatter. ss&s. PorP. ""The apple tree" O23 [130] 40w 'offer'" ""A glass too full" O24 [131] 39w 'crystal' " Started writing "Swinger" [142] เที่ยง. 86 degrees. pôod. Isan. Continued with yesterday's post chat. P'Nan. Rube from Israel. walk. Well written: https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/technology/jerry-zezima-how-do-you-like-them-appl... To Steven on the Newsfeed: "Friends are helpful for me. Even staying in a shelter helped me with depression when I was homeless; however... the anxiety and how my body handled all that exacerbated my traumas. We have senior housing in Montana that includes a meal. Forcing people out of their room works for some folks. I'm very isolated here in Thailand (not as bad as Montana during covid). A cafe culture like in Viet Nam would help. There's a belly-to-the-bar culture among expats here... but I don't drink and find most drinkers tedious at best. If I am to stay here I better come up with solutions. There's more to life than being unhappy." On FB on Veronica's post: "Leyla Miler: Well... we respond to what we understand. I stand by my understanding of what was posted. I don't know about individual circumstances. I refuse to argue other people's truths. In many countries, Thailand included, family = family regardless. By definition, orphans have no family. Orphans have a rough time here. I'm in Thailand by-the-way... "Problems" affect the entire family and community. It's not seen as an individual's issue. Families do say "no", but seek solutions first. This Buddhist culture isn't as cold-hearted and me-first as found in many other places." 23 oktober - 23 ตุลาคม Chulalongkorn Day [Rama V] (Thai: จุฬาลงกรณ์, 20 September 1853 – 23 October 1910) - National holiday. exor. 200/150/250/500 = 1.100 77-82 degrees. 08:56-09:21. 25 minutes seems to be sustainable. obsv. Hoot of the Heron. Tom's soft music. Cool hard bench. My butt. Dry mouth. Lower back ache. Soiled scarlet shirt. Yawn. Tired. Calm---ish. Fly. ss&s. Isan. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=teck0d6Z8sw เที่ยง. 88°F 31°C sunny, pleasant (not too humid). bogs. Grace/ shop. Pan and I went to market and bought some pig-meat, eggs and vegetables. agua. 8 liters. walk. foto. To Thomas: "I am fortunate to do daily exercise... even when I really don't have any oomph to get out of bed. Use it or lose it. At my advanced age I cannot afford to lose more. My legs are doing better than last year and I'm maintaining a lower weight. My lungs however..." To Grace: "Living alone with depression and anxiety created all kind of problems for me over time in Montana. Here in Thailand I share a place. Pannya often cooks and cleans (I do too, but not as a chore). We need to do a deep clean soon. You can imagine what I found under the bed! There be  monsters..." |
| (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. 22 oktober - 22 ตุลาคม 300/200/400/400 = 1.300. 75-81 degrees, 09:13-09:46 Sun coming around earlier every day. obsv. family with a ball; I'm dissociating, distracted; spoke to Rick; yawn; aches; small orchid in bloom; no haze; leaf scurry; breeze in my ear. foto. orchid wash. เที่ยง. 85°F 29°C ss&s. Late, but ate first and got distracted. As long as I'm fresh before I go out it doesn't matter much. agua. 6 liters. walk. shop. Malago, cabbage, greens...In 2023, the Loy Krathong festival will be held on Monday, November 28th. King Bhumibol's Birthday Holiday (Father's Day) Tuesday, December 5th. Sunday 10 Dec - Constitution Day; Monday 11 Dec - Substitute Holiday for Constitution Day Prince Prajak 18 January? Magha Puja วันมาฆบูชา --- Sat, 24 Feb 2024. To Stik: "I've taken thousands of photos. Today I took a picture of an orchid I've been waiting to see bloom. Yesterday, a video of the passing local train. I'll be taking more of the Halloween displays because this city in Thailand does weird things. I'd take more pictures of Pan, but he prefers professional photos. Have a few good ones though. I'm very attuned to color, contrast and composition. I don't have the proper equipment nor the discipline. I only have the urge to capture "something". Stained glass light in Portugal illuminating a child. Painted manhole covers in Beppu, Japan. Garbage in a canal in Paris. I point. I shoot." 21 oktober - 21 ตุลาคม Holly Jahangiri: Change what the skeleton is holding! 💐 💀 / |{🎈}\_/ | =||= I / \ /_ \_ exor. 200/200/200/500 = 1.100 obsv. PorP. ss&s. cook. Pan isn't here... so I'm cooking rice with carrots, onions and garlic. เที่ยง. 87°F 31°C Sunny. Day after boring day. bogs. Stik/Lyn/Pumpkin walk. rose, offering, ice cream. pool. can't hold my breath. tv31. Pan came home. To Pumpkin: "I remove the elastic and cut up into pieces for rags. Most anything can be a rag. The elastic can be tossed or used to tie or bundle other things. Socks can be cut up as well. Depending on fabric... the compost heap might be appropriate. I keep my best underwear/socks/etc. for travel. I tend to use until threadbare. I have 'ancient' shirts. I have pants that are too small or too big. My weight has fluctuated. I usually buy second hand." 20 oktober - 20 ตุลาคม "Tsum tsum" I have a new Disney notepad I'm writing in. Prefer paper for many things... maybe an old habit, but it works for me. It's like my checklists... yes, maybe I don't have to add "ss&s" every day but it helps me stay focused and present. I could sleep in and do nothing some days. I am easily depressed and accomplishing 'something', anything, is a good thing. exor. 200/200/300/400 = 1.100 79 degrees. 0911-09:34. Saw Tom. obsv. PorP. ""Magnolia" O20 [129] 40w 'nice'" and in my notepad. ss&s. dove drinking water, scratching its head; long seed pods yellowing; sweat trickling down my back; stained sweatpants that need to be washed. เที่ยง.89°F 32°C, breeze... sprinkles in the forecast? walk. foto. tv31.Pan didn't come home. 19 oktober - 19 ตุลาคม exor. 300/200/200/300 = 1.000 81 degrees. 09:52 obsv. agua. 10 liters. PorP. ""Tradescantia zebrina" O18 38w [128] 'wander'" ss&s. flutter of small pale wings, haze, pigeons, worker cutting the blooming flowerbed. เที่ยง. 89°F 32°C, jets overhead. Wish it would rain. walk. pôod. Jack and Earth (Nong Khai).Headline: Legendary American Musician Dead At 87 Why isn't her name mentioned (better for lick bait?) in the headline. She was Carla Bley, a jazz musician. This is the poem that Elle Schroeder wrote for Ann Gross February 18, 2016: "A letter from a dear friend" I opened your letter today, and you sat in the armchair beside me, cup of tea in hand, as we gossiped like two old women. Of mutual friends, and Molly, of dreams and fears and life, and all the while, we laughed, and prattled on as only two long standing friends can do. When I reached the letter's end, I was quite surprised to find myself alone, as at the start, only the memory of your smile and your words to remind me of all we had said. Was being a lesbian important to her? Did she have a late-in-life partner. The obit remains silent. 18 oktober - 18 ตุลาคม exor. 350/200/250/400 = 1200. My goal... that I seldom reach. 09:15 79 degrees. ss&s. I shave although there's no one to shave for. PorP. ""It is what it is" O17 [127] 40w 'authentic'" เที่ยง. 88 degrees. chat. P'Nan. Thong is quite ill, went to hospital. Tiger. shop. One wee item... a new notepad as mine are full. walk. Ate at McD's again.17 oktober - 17 ตุลาคม bogs. Evelyn/Grace/Dave exor. 300/150/150/300 = 900. 79 degrees. 09:02-09:24. Didn't push myself today. The sun comes around earlier every day. ss&s. chat. Rick re healthy habits; P'Nan. gnus. Although it almost always puts me on edge. Pan decided to go to Khon Kaen. He tells me at the last minute. He lives his life this way. I cannot plan around him. To Grace: "I had a haircut last week. Didn't like it so I just ignore it. Once upon a time I had long hair; once upon a time I had more hair. I could use a podiatrist. My circulation isn't as good as it once was. And cutting nails? I'm not as flexible and my eyes... I'm just on my way to becoming ancient.  "To EvelynCase "labels" : "I was called names... but I had other issues. These days you can call me 'Cory' (or with the proper lilt in Norwegian) or 'Liam' in Thailand. huser:elle I didn't know that you pronounced your name that way (or I knew and forgot)! We were taught French in grade-school so I've always pronounced it as French. huser:daveryan: I was mistakenly called 'Jim' by a parent of a classmate... and that was acceptable. It became a personal name I liked. I avoided most people in school. huser:evelyncase I consider names important. My mother was old-school in that way and I learned well. I have many friends from other countries. I always try to pronounce their name correctly." 16 oktober - 16 ตุลาคม exor. 200/350*/300/400 = 1250. 79-81 degrees 09:35-59. Suns was vicious so I did them out of order ending on the swinging* side-to-side which normally is my least favorite station. ss&s. I list this to remind me how important it is. Need to shower 2-3 times to tell you the truth. mess. Not really a mess but ants got into the rice last time so I've filled up 5 containers this time. เที่ยง. 86 degrees (30c). PorP. ""May we never be forgotten" O16 37w 'specimen' " walk. foto. plant, food. shop. Black/Pink, container for Milo, coffee. pool. bogs. Eric/Patricia/Jimminny To Teresa (ChewyKitty): "I get grumpy when I read certain travel blog posters. Really? If I wanted a toxic giddy faux picture I'm sure I could read a travel brochure. I ask... have you ever been there? IS someone paying you to travel first-class and stay in 5 star hotels? Do you know the pain of cattle-class? Have you ever stayed in a hostel. Did you visit for more than two days? Have you been there for over a month? How many times? Places I know: Norway, Japan, Portugal... not to forget living twice in Costa Rica and now in Thailand. Yes, I know it's not quite the same thing... but I'd request 3 employees chosen from a hat... not just the happy ones." To Eric "Picking Up Blocks" : "There comes a time... At the end of "He's Coming to Me" (Thai TV series) Mes is shocked to find he's still a ghost. The rituals have been performed, the conditions met for him to move on... it's just not time for him to go. At my age, the Veil thins. Death is a given. What I do with my time until then isn't. It's my choice. Yes, I think your grandsons will remember you fondly for all the quality time you have gifted them." |
| Past the Solstice... shadows weaken, lengthen, shift. (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (shit,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. 15 oktober - 15 ตุลาคม KOTG: "and its god shall turn on them" The idea that nature is abused. exor. 200/100/300/250 = 850. Very late start... and a sunny 88 degrees = not good ss&s. bogs. Brian/Sonali/Mighty/Annipon เที่ยง. 12:13 86 degrees. Isan. 1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z4XIiGf5FHw&t=30s 2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CZ1ytsgvGHo walk. picked up Birdy Coffee (blue#2) at Big C. chat. Saw Tiger! Haven't seen him in a long while. agua. 5 liters. PorP. ""Xerox" 40w O14 'original " and ""The Lorax weeps" O15 40w 'crisis'" To Brian "Keep Away (MV)" : "I actually like this. However, "guards with a your voice" makes no sense grammatically; so, was this intentional, a mistake, a typo? Easily corrected.The two poems are linked by image and message. I could see a book of these with linked poems staring across the void of a blank space (different pages?)." To Sonali "Crooks disguised as..." : "brat/babysat ... alliteration and rhyme ... I think it needs an edit as some phrases are awkward. The message is grim but it's truly some people's truth. Met folks who regretted having children. A child may be okay if other members of the family or community provide the nurturing each child deserves. " To Mighty "overseas" : "I should've gotten a credit card years ago; but, bad experiences managing my money meant that I felt safer with a debit card. This last trip was 34+ hours MSO-DOH-BKK. American is meh. Economy in Qatar was meh. The raves for Qatar are for first class. The poor-people's lounge in Doha was meh. The trip was far too long. My past experiences with ANA and Aseana were so positive... plenty of legroom (32-34" in Econo-class). I'll consider EVA, Starlux or Thai for the next flight. I've been to Liverpool (great museums and culture) but not Scotland nor London. How much time? You'll wear yourself out if you attempt to plan every hour. One day of 'nothing' can be nice, especially if you are gone two weeks. Glad to read that you are traveling. I wanted to be in Cambodia today. But... I've slowed down tremendously as I age. Just going to Sisaket for 3 days was 19 hours on the bus total. Instead of staying in Khun Han I insisted that we spend 3 nights in a hotel we like in Sisaket and do a day trip to Khun Han. Worked out much better. Pan got to his doctor's appt. and we both bought clothes in the marked-down market." To Annipon re "World Go 'Round" "There are other paradigms out there. I could make suggestions as to where to look. Most Americans however won't look at other societies and cultures and Christians tend to look down on everyone else. Thailand isn't Paradise, but it's not as mean and divided like some places I've lived in. As for the idea... yes, we need not be divided and people, especially the poor are devastated by war. The music doesn't inspire me. Too negative without any suggestions. Bleak describes it." 14 oktober - 14 ตุลาคม Pan's birthday. exor. 300/100/200/300 = 900. 81 at 08:57. Worker hosed down the bushes... and the bench where I usually sit. ss&s. bogs. Carolyn/Joy/Robert walk. shop. bought Pan a car and a ring. To Carolyn: "There are wet stone walls? I'm not sure what a dry stone wall is. Googled. Got it. Basically no mortar. Warm here in NE Thailand today. About 31 degrees. I want rain. Lovely day however... Can get eggplant, tomatoes, basil and chili here. Peas? Beans? Not so common. I haven't seen beans. I have no garden. July 4th is definitely a High Holy Day according to the American Religion. And yes... Americanism is a religion for many. " To Joy: "Ah... Lyn without coffee... a scary thought... any day of the year. I'm not superstitious. I do have trauma and a date can trigger bad memories along with the good. Today is the 14th of October. No associations with that day. March 2nd... however... I'd gladly have a cat. Of any color. Softball and Oda were two of my black cats. Asian superstitions however... quite a mix here in Udon Thani, mostly Lao, so superstitions vary with culture. This building has floor 12A for instance." To Robert: "Yes, Amethyst Waltz, boy wonder... Ah... the could'ves, would'ves, thank-gawd-i-didn't-have-kids. Actually, I like that name combination. A waltzing man who can drink without getting drunk. My sister was born in February so amethyst is a word from my childhood." 13 oktober - 13 ตุลาคม exor. 200/150/300/400 =1050. Note in the mood at first and then pushed it. About 79-81 degrees at 9-ish. ss&s. bogs. Steven/Charity/Lyn. wash. Thankfully I'd bought more hangers. We needed them. เที่ยง. 89°F 32°C Sunny on a sky-blue day festooned with satin puffs. PorP. "Clip clop (13.okt.2023)" "Day 24: Complications" agua. 8 liters.Clip clop Clip, clop; the unicorn passes them by. I hang like a fly under the harness. I have places to go where frightened men dare not — or can't. I chant to the beat of the clip-clop cant! We slow to a canter as we enter the village. Ten centaurs await us, blocking the way, braying — you shan't. (13.oktober.2023) To Caoimhe: "Very beautifully written. I stand with the Palestinians and Jews who want to live as brothers. There are many. I do not agree with the Israeli government's colonial attitude. I cannot stand with terrorists. I refuse to equate the crimes of governments and mobs with the daily humble lives of humans striving to survive." To Teresa (ChewyKitty): "I'm not into thongs... Anything that binds or gets caught in the wrong place isn't to my liking. I don't wear banana bikinis. I don't wear boxer briefs because for me... they bind. I wear long sleeve shirts rather than lather SP-5,000 chemicals on my aging flesh. I wear long pants to deter the mosquitoes. Loose is better. I don't wear spaghetti straps either... or the male equivalent. I wear a hat or a cap. Just my preference; but, I don't get sunburnt nor do I need to visit the hospital." To Steven "20231010 Spreading Writing Wings" : "Fosse is too Norwegian. Just saying... He has good advice about just being oneself.I used to write more. I'm getting back into writing whatever gives me momentary pleasure as editing can always be put off to later, if ever. I'm eclectic, so I do understand." 12 oktober - 12 ตุลาคม exor. 200/100/200/300 = 800. 81 degrees when I finished at 09:48. A blue-sky breeze. The sun was coming around so I didn't do it in my regular order. I need to start at 8. chat. Tom. ss&s. เที่ยง. 90 degrees. walk. Got haircut.11 oktober - 11 ตุลาคม exor. 300/100/200/400 = 1000. 09:01 77 degrees. wash. Pan washed. I helped hang... a little. Bought 24 more hangers yesterday. PorP. ""Indigo asters" O10 40w 'wisdom'" ss&s. chat. Nan. mark. Pork, eggs, greens... Isan. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z4XIiGf5FHw agua. 8 liters.My NaNoWriMo 2023 title is "The Dimpled Land". Wrote a bit today. To Elizabeth: "Nope. Oh... you wanted details/description/drama/disaster/death? I'm not dead yet. Some drama though. A year in Thailand. It's been difficult/draining/deflating. I do/do/do seem to be back writing this past week and overall my health has improved; although, I'm still overly tired all the time. This may be the last stage of my life so my goals have shifted. Instead of 'where do I want to live' it's 'where do I want to die'. It does help focus..." To TJ: "Lots of introverts in New York. Easy to hide in a crowd when folks are too busy to interact. For extroverts like me... I hope there are cafes. Montana has mountains, so I get the 'blocks my view'. I prefer the wheaten prairie of autumn in Kansas or green puddled rice fields of Isan after a rain." 10 oktober - 10 ตุลาคม trip. 7 1/2 hour bus from Sisaket to Udon Thani. Changed busses in Khon Kaen. Arrived stiff. walk. Walked to market, bought hangers. Pan left and came home very late. I just need to learn how to let go and not worry. 09 oktober - 09 ตุลาคม appt. Pan went to clinic/doctor in Khun Han. I went to market. Bought 8 shirts for 365 baht.Bus takes 1 1/2 hours. There and back again. |
| (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. 8 oktober We stay in Sisaket PorP. Absolutely horrible day. Grab to Rajabhat. Long walk back through garbage, trash and filth. The university is about 5 km from the center. No buses, no transportation. This is the local college for 'poor' students. Pan acted nasty. 'Nuff said. Late coffee/tea. Sat outside with Arm, Lay, Golf who were drinking beer, many beers. 7 oktober We go to Sisaket PorP.On bus to Ubon... then another bus. We're in Yasothorn. Need to find out schedule for Yasothorn-Sisaket. It's 15:48. We missed out on the direct bus. Arrived at Sisaket. Staying in T4 for 3 nights. 6 oktober exor. 200/100/200/300 = 800. 82 degrees at 09:15. No motivation. ss&s. PorP. walk. trip. Didn't buy ticket. tv31. I must pack today for tomorrow. If I'm smart I'll buy the bus ticket too! 5 oktober exor. 350/200/250/300 = 1100. 84 degrees at 08:49 ss&s. cook. chicken and pork with lemon, sugar, carrots, greens. ytBL. "I Feel You Linger in the Air" Ep1 Ep2 เที่ยง. 89°F 32°C bogs. Sonali/Beholden/Wordsmitty/Harlow chat. P'Nan walk. shop. toilet paper, ice cream. PorP. ""Expired" O5 'delicious' 37w" When did you realize you were dead? 4 oktober I need to calm down. A bit of drama the last two days. Nothing life threatening; it's just that my nerves are so damaged that I can't withstand any bad news... no matter how petty. I'm trying to get back into routines. It's 10:54 and I already have made some progress on the day. I enjoyed writing on paper. I'll go for water, a walk, visit friends, study? It's an idea. Pan seems happy today. We visit his doctor on the 9th.  exor. 300/100/200/300 = 900. 81 degrees at 8 a.m. It was very quiet in the shadows. ss&s. Found my toothbrush. PorP. ""Dug in" O3 40w 'root' " wash. Pan is washing and cooking today. agua. another 8 liters. chat. Nan and German visitor from Brasil.To KansasCane on YCC: "If the last two centuries have had a steady heartbeat then the last two decades have been a heart attack. It's the uncertainty of it all that disturbs creatures of habit." 3 oktober https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/opinion/the-world-would-be-better-off-without-rel... exor. 200/100/200/200 = 700. The sun comes around by 10:00. 84/29 degrees. cook. rice in pepsi with onion and cilantro ss&s. baht. took out money. the closest ATM didn't have the funds. chat. with David. walk. shop. Lotus. Pan and I both bought  . agua. 8 liters.To Charity on FB: "I find it interesting how small additions help in a kitchen. I value my scissors, my one knife to chop, my rice cooker, my 10 liter jug for filtered water. We have a rack... not as fancy 😊 but it helps. The clothes rack on the balcony is a must in Thailand. Small details, but they matter." To Renae on FB: "Chris Carpenter, I personally like interacting with people more than robots. I can ask questions. I can receive answers. It's why I don't do drive-throughs like Starbucks, why I don't do delivery. I love old time diners with coffee and a slice of pie. In Thailand I smile and speak to street vendors. The folks selling flowers, roti, chicken-on-a-stick know me. I want to be seen and heard. A machine cannot do that." 2 oktober Trip. train home to Udon Thani. walk. Up before 7 a.m. Ate breakfast! Out by 7:15? Took green line to blue line to Ban Sue... an empty cavern of a new train station with poor signage and long distances. Horrible place imho. Train was hot. I sat in 3rd class, car 4, seat 38? Anyhoo... no rain but the fields were very green and soaked. There's been bad flooding in some areas today. Very worn out. Pan was glad to see me, bought me roses (old rose color), made sure I ate. I'm going to bed early as I'm exhausted. Tomorrow I'll unpack and try to restart routines. I do need to rethink how I'm spending what is possibly the last stage of my life. 8549 40 words... The prompts for the following dates: Use Nature blog? 10/01/2023- 'reflect' 10/02/2023-'tremendous' 10/03/2023-'root' This is how it begins. How it always begins. An urge to seek water and sustenance. An urge to cling to the soil that nurtures us. Finally a shy shoot to greet the sun. While roots... dig deeper in the heart they call home. 10/04/2023- 'instrumental' ??? 10/05/2023-'delicious' grapes after the frost, a banana before it turns brown, fresh bread and split pea soup. So many things are delicious just before they rot: bananas turning black, bread with a spot of mold, your teeth before they fall out. Death becomes you. I can vouch for that. 10/06/2023-'terrific' as in terrifying? 10/07/2023-'until' waiting, 17 years, 20... Until you bloom like the cutting of a night blooming orchid. I waited 17 years to inhale its fragrance. Tonight I inhale yours. 10/08/2023-fragile' poppy, seedling, chick Not everything last. Not youth. Not beauty. Not the fragile petals of a roseate poppy. What endures is the memory of a moment that came in a dream and left on the wings of breeze. 10/09/2023-'determinant' Lead stem, flower, pinch and it branches, chrysanthemum. 10/10/2023-wisdom' Flowers that symbolize wisdom are: Sage, Jacaranda, Iris, Perovskia, Polygonatum (Solomon’s Seal), Aquilegia (Columbine) and Euphorbia (Spurge). September I'll remember. Like an aster, a star fallen to earth whilst the sage shyly blooms, small yellow flowers that defy the coming frost. 10/11/2023-reply' ??? 10/12/2023-'collapse' Tired, the petals weep then wither. They have given their all. Only time will tell the fruits of their labor, whether it yielded a harvest of sprouts, a continuance of life itself, someone's last dinner. Prompt me ghouls... Week 1: phonebooth *Boothr* I followed the emerald ooze. It was coming from the rusted abandoned phone booth. No door, no phone, but I felt a ringing in my ear. Week 2: pirate flag *Pirateflag* She hung the skull-and-bones upside down on the widow's peak. By moonlight, I caught a glint of a silvery hook. Earlier:She hung a black flag upside down on the widow's peak. By moonlight, I caught a glint of her silvery hook. Week 3: train *Trainv* The tracks came into town over 100 years ago. They had been abandoned for over 5 decades. Surely the ghosts of the train wreck had moved on by now. Surely. Week 4: handprint *Hand2* It was small, like a racoon. It was red like fresh strawberry jam. The hand that made it couldn't have gone far. Week 5: October 31st *Dateoct31* No need to stress out. Bad things only happened on the first of the month, they told me. It was still the 31st until midnight. |
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