My thoughts released; a mind set free |
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These pages contain my thoughts, from meandering ideas and persuasions to deep cerebrations and serious mentations. Why, for what purpose? To release my mind and set creativity free. Somewhere inside the constraints of my mind dwells a writer, a poet, an artist who paints with words. In here, I release those constraints and set the artist free. Perhaps, lost somewhere in the depths of thought, is a story or a poem, waiting to be written. |
| That's not quite how my computer or cell phone puts it. They no longer recognize me. I use fingerprint recognition to unlock both my phone and my computer, but for the last two days, my prints have been unrecognizable, or so my devices tell me. I believe them. In fact, it would be more correct for them to inform me that I don't have fingerprints, not typical ones, anyway. When I was working in the sawmill, I lost my fingerprints from handling the rough-cut wood. In the winter, they would come back because I would have to wear gloves to handle the frozen wood, but then spring would arrive, and those cumbersome gloves had to go. Now, I'm not handling rough-cut lumber or anything that should be wearing my prints off, but nonetheless, they are smooth. This is something recent, the last two days. I didn't have any problems on the seventh after my infusion, but by the eighth, I was having difficulties, and by that night, I had to resort to using my PIN. In looking at my finger tips, they are smooth, barely grooved at all. They appear to have been filed or sanded down, either on purpose or by handling rough items. But neither of these are the case. The only thing that could be causing it is the immunotherapy I had on the seventh. There is a risk that my immune system could attack my own body, but the way it was explained was that it would be internal. For example, my kidneys or liver, lungs or heart, it could even be my intestines or stomach; anything. I suppose it could be external as well, but there should be other symptoms, like redness, pain, swelling, etc. This is not the case; other than being worn down, my fingers are doing fine. Well, except for the neuropathy. In fact, I'm feeling pretty good nowadays, except for some abdominal pain. That is another side effect of the immunotherapy, but it's not nearly as bad as it was from the chemo. Just the same, I sent a note off to my doctor explaining the loss of fingerprints and everything else I've explained here. Hopefully, I'll get an answer on Monday. It's too bad I'm inexperienced in crime; this could be advantageous in that line of work. |