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Dissociated Thoughts

by LeJenD'

Rated: 18+ · Book · Writing.Com · #2251487

Guided by prompts from WDC blogging challenges... and of course, life

HI! I'm Jenn - and I'm all over the place (well, at least my mind is). In this blog, I have attempted to gather my thoughts on things prompted/inspired by WDC blogging challenges from "Journalistic Intentions"

, "The Soundtrack of Your Life"

, "Blogging Circle of Friends "

, "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS"

and, well, LIFE.

Signature for those who are nominated for a Quill Award in 2021

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10 Most Recent Blog Comments:

NaNotatoGo!

Jun 3, 2024 at 4:12pm
In response to "One Weird Weekend"

Wow! That sounds super stressful. I hope the rest of June goes better for you.

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🌕 HuntersMoon

Jun 3, 2024 at 2:36pm
In response to "One Weird Weekend"

Nothing to worry about... It was just the ghost of Jerry Lee Lewis passing by.

Glad you're OK.

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LeJenD'

Jun 3, 2024 at 2:07pm
In response to "One Weird Weekend"

That's the truth! I always seem to find ways of putting myself right where there is possibility of exactly that, but somehow usually manage to stay safe and unharmed. Someone greater than me is looking out for me, of that I am certain.

Cubby

Jun 3, 2024 at 1:58pm
In response to "One Weird Weekend"

Oh, my!!! Thank goodness you weren't hurt!

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Schnujo's Doing NaNoWriMo?

Mar 20, 2024 at 2:56pm
In response to "Getting Through Today"

I'm so sorry things are so hard.

Elycia Lee ☮

Mar 15, 2024 at 6:09am
In response to "Grieving"

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👼intuey

Jul 25, 2023 at 1:51pm
In response to "What Goes Up Must Come Down"

Hey, My heart goes out to you. I can relate. I'm Bipolar also. They diagnosed me as manic-depressive years ago, but it still took years for a diagnosis. I'm doing much better these days, but still have my highs and lows. The combination of Lexapro and Abilify has been the greatest help. I've tried a lot of different medication combos, and I have to say that just adding Abilify has helped me greatly!

My furbabies are everything to me. They're always near. I have two terrier-mix little girls. I wouldn't even want to think of what life would be like without them. They may be dogs, but they're good for hugs, cuddling, and talking to. They've been with me through thick and thin.

You're so right, they are definitely perceptive. They know when you need extra attention, and they know when to keep an eye out for you. They are definitely a blessing from God.

If you ever need to talk or just rant, feel free to write me.

I hope you're feeling better.

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LeJenD'

Jun 29, 2023 at 7:15pm
In response to "What Goes Up Must Come Down"

Thanks for reading and understanding, it means a lot. And I agree, my fur-boys are definitely gifts from God too!

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Jay O'Toole

Jun 29, 2023 at 7:01pm
In response to "What Goes Up Must Come Down"

LeJenD, you're not by yourself. I've battled depression in cycles throughout my life so far. I think in some ways, it's hereditary. As an adult, I have become convinced, that my Mom had undiagnosed Bipolar Disorder. When she was feeling "good," she'd take my brother and me to "the big town" to play all day. When she was feeling "bad," I had my hands full counseling her for hours. Who knew that wasn't a teenager's job?

Poetry has become such a balm for my soul. The depression is still there, but it seems to bring some level of relief when I put my feelings down in a poem. Amazingly enough, some of my best poetry has been written when I was depressed. The Lord has graciously given me the gift of poetry.

BTW, dogs are quite perceptive animals. Mine is lying on the floor near me as I write. I think she's a gift from God, too.

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February 2, 2022 at 1:57pm

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Soundtrack Day 2 - The Great Below

- Feb. 2, 2022

The Great Below by Nine Inch Nails

2021 saw many bad days for me, as it did for lots of others. Financial problems, ongoing health problems, and being unable to work due to those health issues added to my mental health issues. My oldest moved back out of the house in the middle of the year, leaving that gap in my heart wide open again. I had to get over that empty nest syndrome all over again. There were many days of crippling depression, days of not wanting to be alive, days of feeling alienated from my family and friends, and so, so many days of pain. With nothing to do, I had nothing to inspire me to live. Music became my best friend when my husband was at work. I could judge which way my mental health was headed by reviewing my playlists. On manic days, the songs I chose were always upbeat and happy, some annoyingly so, or aggressive and angry. On those days that the depression overtook me (and still overtakes me), sad tunes filled my playlist. There's one song in particular that is recurring on those days of darkness.

I would wake with Trent Reznor's voice singing this song on those days and it would be on virtual repeat in my head for the rest of the day. It calls to me on those darkened days, pulls me in. I have dreams of drowning myself, of "descending from grace in arms of undertow." Who is the "you" referred to in the song? And the "she"? They are parts of the "ME" I once was (and still see from time to time).

Luckily, not all days are that bad - or I wouldn't be here blogging about it. And happy days are just a song away.

The Great Below" lyrics ▼

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