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I spent Christmas Eve alone this past year,
Trying to remember all that I feel,
Listening for voices I could not hear.

Unwrapping memories tied with my fear,
Just wondering why, none of it looked real.
I spent Christmas Eve alone this past year.

Sipping eggnog with my cat sitting near,
Swallowing ashes of the evening meal,
Listening for voices I could not hear.

Watching all the snow fall, blurred by a tear,
More grief seeping out that I can’t conceal.
I spent Christmas Eve alone this past year.

Wanting desperately just to disappear,
The midwinter’s night became so surreal,
Listening for voices I could not hear.

Your memory I will always hold dear,
Your death has made everything, so unreal,
I spent Christmas Eve alone this past year,
Listening for voices I could not hear.