poetry/prose contest!!

Deliberate Intentions

Why am I still in love with you
why is this something I cant change
You pretend to be a friend of mine
but then say things to cause me pain

You know how I feel towards you
Because I told you so
yet with deliberate intentions
you deliver hurtful blows

Telling me how this new man
that you met a month ago
is the best thing in your life
better than I could ever know

I know you know this hurts me
so I cant figure out your game
why would you confide in me
things you know will cause me pain

I dont want to believe
a man I still love very much
with deliberate intentions
my heart He tries to crush

How could I still be in love
with a man that treats me this way
with deliberate intentions
reach out to hurt me everyday

I should have stuck to my guns
when I said goodbye,farewell, adieu
But the way to pretend to care for me
keeps me coming back to you

Youve made it really clear to me
by the things you say and do
you're not a man who's worthy
Of the love I have for you

So why do I keep coming back
and communicating with you
when I know that your intentions
are deliberate and cruel

Im going through so much right now
my health failing more each day
so why do I keep letting you
rip my heart out in everyway

I hope no one ever hurts you
the way you enjoy hurting me
with deliberate intentions
and cruel things said with glee

I really cant lay all the blame
completely in your lap
for although you hurt me daily
I still keep coming back

Its little consolation
to know my heart is true
and your deliberate intentions
are downright mean and cruel

So today I have decided
Is the day Im finally through
and my deliberate intentions
is to heal my heart from you

Brett Michael Crow
June 12th, 2006