Noticing Newbies

Hello there to all the fellow writers!

I am new to here, but not new to writing. Writing, like running, is a go to for me to organize my thoughts and inclinations. I have mostly been writing on blogs, but recently decided to expose the soul. I have trouble with criticism, therefore have reached the only level I can without it. It's time to be open and hear what you think! My goal for this sight is to grow, to learn, and to communicate. To express without harsh judgement (well, maybe harsh if I'm not as good as I think I am). I cannot seem to get the words from my brain to my mouth to speak them out loud, but give me a pen or a keyboard, and I'll tell you what I think.

Seven years ago, I was a wife trying to have babies and running a small photography business specializing in pregnancy, newborns and toddlers. Two years and five miscarriages later, I became separated and depressed, so I turned to a friend for help and became an exterminator. Today, I am simply a traveller with everything I own fitting into a backpack that I carry around. I have been to Jamaica, Mexico, all over Europe, and just finished crossing my own country, good old Canada. My boyfriend and I walked three months in the mountains of British Columbia on the Trans Canada Trail, and drove the rest of the way across to St. John's Newfoundland. I am now sitting here confused, wondering what the next journey of my life will be. My friend, turned boyfriend roughly twoish years ago, is struggling with Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD, and depression (self diagnosis), and although it creates epic writing material, our relationship is no longer on the solid ground it once was.

i often write purposely without proper capitalization, such as this sentence, mostly because i feel there are no rules when you are writing, but sometimes i do it to save time. don't get me wrong, i am fast on the keyboard, but one extra button when the mind is racing slows the fingers slightly.

Lately my emotions have been running rapid, and I can no longer decipher which way is up. I have committed this week to being alone, as hard as that is, to write, to organize, to meditate. I am taking the time to figure out my next step, to find my place in this world.

Thank you all from my heart for being here! I am hoping this will be helpful in taking my writing to the next level, possibly book worthy.

DeeJ