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 1,000 GPs were sent to Scifiwizard Retired  with this post.Scifiwizard, I lost my Mom in February of this year (2017.) She died as a result of illness and advanced age in her bed in a nursing home. (She would have been 90, if she had lived to August, 2017) The first month was challenging, but I was distracted from my grief by being a member of a local community play cast. In the past month or so the acting has subsided and I have been left alone with with my emotions. Some days I do well. Some days...not so well. At times, I cry for apparently no reason, but I know there is plenty of reason, whether this most recent of losses or the accumulation of losses throughout life that I have not fully grieved. I was quite stoic in my youth and I became depressed as a result. Now, I am working through "STUFF" and I don't know the WHY of the tears. I have been told I don't really need to know the WHY. I simply need to experience the tears. I have begun to have a realization, regarding relationships and the way I have learned to navigate them more or less effectively. When I bare my soul to someone, even my new friends on WDC, and there is a long silence that follows, it feels like anger or loss of relationship. Could this be a result of experiencing grief more fully? Growing through the dark experiences of life seems to be an especially long, even lifetime long, process. Thanks for having a place where we can be real and process our grief. Be Blessed Always!    |
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