Under Construction - MHWA Retreat

Okay, I'll be the odd one out (which is my norm ) I actually work hard on forgiveness, not just for grudges are hatred I hold onto for others who did me wrong, but also things that I have done that was not right -- when I was definitely in the wrong.

I do so by first just stating the words -- even though I won't 'feel' any emotions toward those words, I keep saying it, until eventually something changes and I am actually 'forgiving' them or myself the best I can anyway,

And trust me it's not for the other person -- it's totally for me. When you hold onto forgiveness, or even the residual negativity of the act which caused the whole need for forgiveness -- it weighs heavy on you (rather you realize it or not) it's amazing the feeling (in your heart/chest or/and head, that you feel when forgiveness is actually achieved.

It does not mean I will ever hang around those people again. That will bring the energy around me that I worked so hard to rid.

So, forgiveness for me is very hard, but I work hard to try and do so, Even sometimes I'll remember something I did out of the blue years ago and I'll bring it forward and ask forgiveness for what may of happened -- on top of that, I ask for the healing that needs to come with it -- healing for all involved. Sometimes, I mean and can feel the words more than other times, But it's all a progress, and one I think is worth truly working on for yourself. You have to care enough about yourself to begin the process and if you get to the point you feel you have truly been able to let that go from the past and forgive as much as possible, it helps you love and respect yourself just a little more, So, yea. To me, it's an important part of of my mental healing.