Under Construction - MHWA Retreat

I’ve spent a great portion of my life being angry with people and “holding grudges”. Only in the past few years I’ve realized that I am the only one who this is affecting. The people who I was angry with either didn’t know or didn’t care, and the grudges I held, well I’ve forgotten the reasons for half of them. . So what I decided to do a few years ago was to let it all go. Not necessarily forgive anyone, but just let it go. As I read in another post in here, you can’t change the past, and spending time worrying about things that have happened is a waste of energy. I read a quote that says “The past is a lesson, not a life sentence.” I very much see the validity of this now. As for the future, I am letting it come at me. I’ve also learned through life that if you try to hard to force something it has a tendency to backfire on you. I’ve been trying to practice the philosophy of the laws of attraction. Like attracts like. If you put positive energy into the universe, you will get positive results. Same with negative energy. Ever since I’ve been working on this I’ve noticed that it is a true statement. I look at the people around me who “always have bad things happen to them” and they are very negative people. They let the bad energy build up and it keeps attracting more. It seems they can’t do anything without something “bad” happening to them. On the other hand, I have people I know on the other end of the spectrum. (And I’m getting to that point too) where nice things happen even when we aren’t looking for them.

IDK. This is just the way I see things. I’ve spent my whole life struggling with the darkness of depression and a good part of my adult life with anxiety and I’ve found that my new outlook has actually started to bring some peace and stability to my mind and to my soul.