Under Construction - MHWA Retreat

I didn't think there was a problem until I was well into my adult years. The realization dawned on me when I read an article in a scientific magazine. It was a magazine I purchased in a grocery store because the cover aroused my curiosity. The article I read was about Maladaptive Daydreaming. I did an Internet search to find out more, that's when I realized I had a problem.

There are two traumatic events in my childhood and teenage years that could have triggered the problem. One was my parents divorce and the other was sexual abuse by a man who came into my mother life. What really hurt and still hurts is that I felt no one wanted to protect me. I remember incidents where my Grandparents appeared to want to protect my sister over me. There is also the fact that I can't and have never been able to discuss it with my sister because she won't admit that it happened. I know for a fact that she was molested as well.

Stress, of any type, causes me to withdraw into my fantasy world. I have found that if I focus my attention on writing, reading, or prayer that the problem isn't as bad as it was before I discovered the problem and put a name to it.