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Task 29 TOTW Response: Actually I wish I had a little less self-control. I have so much it's kind of stifling. I don't cry and can't, because I trained myself decades ago not to; I seldom erupt except occasionally in anger, not that often; I can't even enjoy the pleasure of reading if it's a book I choose for myself rather than one I have for review (mucho guilt there). I am acquainted with many on one end of the Self-Control continuum who have little or no ability to self-control, who act out, erupt, wear their emotions like clothes, etc. Some years back I spent a 3.5 year friendship with an individual who was allegedly diagnosed as Schizophrenic at, I think, age 18, but who to the best of my knowledge never used medications nor attended therapy. He was an extreme of self-control; his affect appeared to be one of not-feeling. I don't believe he was a Sociopath but rather extremely repressed, and I lay that at the feet of his father. On the other hand, he wasn't completely self-controlled: he pushed me on residential issues and got his own way, contrary to my wishes. So maybe I've given him too much credit for extreme self-control. I am thinking also about the avoidance question; I strive to avoid emotional confrontations and situations, and I see way too much of that in my present venue and have for years. I, on the other hand, am often literally invisible (especially at holidays) (how multiple someones can ignore someone who's been in the household for 13 years). I guess I could be one of those about whom the neighbors say, "But that one was just so quiet. We didn't even know she/he/it/them were around." No, that's not a confession; just a realization.   ![Merit Badge in Science Fiction
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Re: TotW: Self Control · 01-27-19 2:19pm 
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