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Hi, Darleen.

Oh how I wish I had an off switch. There are so many things I'd like to shut off or shut out. The circumstances that led you to create that switch are sad. I know how it is to lose a child and the feelings never go away. I won't say too much because I don't want to cause a trigger for you. I don't think I have enough mental control to create my own switch.

Congratulations on quitting cold turkey! That is something I'm working on, but once again not enough self-control. I did manage to quit once for 13 years. As you say, the urge is always there and one day I gave in.

Like you, I have no motivation. Some days it takes everything to get out of bed or make myself a sandwich. After years of doing everything for everybody, you deserve to be spoiled. That doesn't make you a brat.

It's nice getting to know you in this forum. All my best, River