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Me right now: Hey, how are you doing?
Also me: I thought you'd never ask!



I feel like I'm doing better overall right now than I was last fall, but that isn't saying much. But, I've been out of the hospital for 4 months now (almost to the exact day)!

I'm about 5 weeks away from finishing the current school semester and then I only have summer and fall classes before I graduate. In total, I only have 4 classes left after this semester. Then I'll be part-time in summer and fall. I can't believe I'm finally almost done.

I got a job offer as a teaching assistant for one of my professors and I took it, so I'll be doing that from now until December too. I think it'll look good on my resume and the pay will help for tuition and books.

I finally got my wisdom teeth taken out, which were causing so much pain for months. Oral surgery was pretty difficult for me to recover from, but I've definitely turned the corner and I feel way better starting this week than I did last week.

Unfortunately, I've had a bit of a setback this weekend. In case you're curious to know particulars, I drunkenly laid it all out here: "Invalid Entry" 

But the gist of it is that I got into a fight with my mother that brought up a lot of past memories. I'm not very good at dealing with these things. I tend to start self-medicating quickly because I don't want to remember. And once I'm self-medicating, things can go downhill really fast.

I forced myself to go to school today, even though I've got a migraine which is a perfectly valid excuse to stay at home and wallow in self-pity. I'm trying really hard to just block out anything that was said or brought up.

If I let it soak in at all, I know I'm going to end up screwing things up. I've been doing pretty well the past few weeks aside from that, so I hope I can just forget about it.


Best,

Charlie

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