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Of course I'm gonna respond to my own shit, and because I'm a question-based person... Questions:  How has the first half of your year been? What have you accomplished?For the first, like, 1/4 of this year I felt like I was doing a lot better. I mean, I had a low bar to set after the end of last year, but I kind of felt like I had my shit together. I was getting all my schoolwork done, I got a job at the university, and I was participating in stuff around WDC again. And then I kind of got way off the rails with everything, as these things tend to go.  But, I did finish all my spring courses and summer courses, so I have that going for me which is nice. How has your last week been? How are you doing today? What are you working on right now?My last week has been incredibly up and down. Like, mostly overly down (you can catch up on that here: "Invalid Entry"  ), but my brain decided to go manic within the last 48 hours so now it's like up, up, up. What I really need is sleep. I slept one day last week, like all day long. But other than that, I've slept max 2 hours a night, most nights I slept like an hour or an hour and a half total. But all sporadic throughout the night too, which isn't restful at all.I specifically left my house today to spend time away recuperating. And instead of, ya know, doing that, I'm manically doing WDC things that I've not been behind on forever. Because energy. Where is your year headed? What are you on track to achieve before 2020?I'm on track to graduate in December, even after last year's setback. I took classes during the first session of summer to make up for it. So, last few classes in the fall and then I'm out. I need to start looking for a full-time job, but not really sure when to start the job search. I can't start working full time until December so it feels a bit early (also, please don't give my manic brain something else to 'work on' right now), but at the same time, I wonder if it's ever really too early to start looking. Most of my friends graduated this summer and seeing a couple of them struggle to find jobs has me worried af since we're in the same major in the same city. The only thing I have over them is a better GPA and a job at the university that might look good on a resume. What has been occupying your headspace lately? What are you thinking about?Oh god. Why would I even ask someone this?  There are definitely some people living rent-free in my head right now. I'm definitely in this headspace of, like, "Hey, do something normal!" So, being on WDC and writing is normal. Do that. Or watching movies is normal, so stay up for 2 days and do that. There are so many things I want to forget. I start to drift off into sleep and my brain jerks itself awake. Nothing feels right. Nothing feels normal. But I'm absolutely hellbent on this idea that if I just do normal things, everything else will fall into place. So, that's what I'm doing. Best, Charlie   ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Click Here to Join! |
TotW: Halfway Checkpoint · 06-24-19 6:18pm
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