Under Construction - MHWA Retreat

Oh QPdoll, know you are amazing. Much of what you wrote here, I have either experienced myself, or am going through still. One thing I didn't realize when my girls were young is that they see and feel what we are going through. The see our daily struggles, they hear the words their "father-figures" say and the venom behind those words. Now, with both my angels grown, I fear that I screwed them up by staying in a toxic relationship as long as I did. And then I wonder if the mental illnesses are hereditary, as my oldest has been showing signs of depression since she was a teen. But, I cannot fix the past so I force myself not to get stressed by it (as much as I can)
Based on your post here, your thought processes are quite similar to mine as far as a lot of these quotes go. Other than the fact that I am fully aware that I am crazy and I just attempt to be sane in order to get by in this world - but I've always been not normal. Anyways, we are indeed stronger than our minds tell us we are and none of us are ever going to just "get over it". Like Robin Williams, we will continue to put on that happy mask for the world while we are silently dying inside. My positive thoughts are with you. Keep up the struggle, sweetheart. Your ending quote says it all. Be gentle with yourself... And hey, you aren't alone.