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I'm sorry I haven't been posting a lot the past few weeks, but I've been very busy, and tired and not feeling to well and all.
Last monday was my first day back working at the hospital again, and from monday to friday I had 5 early shifts, which was just exhausting after working in that psychiatric institution for 4 months, where we hardly had anything to do all day, and where I could make my own working schedule, which meant that hardly any of my shifts started before 1:30 pm :p.
Getting up at 6 hasn't been easy the past week..

Anyway, last night I slept 14 hours (!!) and I can't say that made me feel any better, I feel completely worn out now.. I have a cold, a headache (for the past 2 days) and for some reason my eyelids are all swollen.. I look awful!! Lol

I'm listening to my self made Aerosmith cd, with all my favorite songs, trying to cheer myself up, before I have to cheer Tamara up this afternoon. We're going shopping and then have dinner at 'Schutters' which is a really cool place here in Amsterdam. Tamara and I always go there. Anyway, she's been feeling a bit depressed since she came back from Turkey last week. When she was there in November last year she met this guy there, Savas, he's a photographer at the hotel she was staying at. Anyway, they kept in touch when she was back here in Holland, and 2 weeks ago she went to Turkey for a week to see him again. She fell madly in love with him, and they at a great week together, very romantic and everything, but now she's back here again, and she misses him very much..
So I have to try to cheer her up today!!

Another sad story, and then I'll try to think of some happy news ok?
Maartje (you know, one of the girls I went to Zandvoort with) anyway, her boyfriend broke up with her. They were such a great couple, madly in love and everything, but last week he told her that he needed to be alone for a while. His mother died few months ago, and now it all started to get through to him, and he needed to deal with everything by himself. Of course she could understand that and they decided to stay friends, and if he would be ready for it, maybe get back together again. That was bad enough as it is, but it got worse.. A few days after that she found out that he and her sister had been having a relationship for a while already too!! She had 4 sisters, but Willeke was more like her best friend then her sister! I feel so sorry for her! She feels so betrayed and hurt.. The 2 people she loves most betrayed her..
I don't know why I'm telling you this, but I just needed to get it of my chest I think. It just makes me so sick!! how could she do this to her own sister?? How could he do this to her?? I know that you can't choose who you fall in love with, but they could have at least been honest about it. That would have hurt her too, but not like this..

Enough about that..

About Rian, she's not in Australia right now, she was there in 2000/2001 for a year, and then again the summer of 2002, and she's planning to go again in December for 6 months again. I'll be done with school in December, but won't get my diploma until somewhere in February, so I will have to stay in Holland until then, but after that I'm free to go so... I'm going to try to save up enough money and go visit her for about 4 weeks.. I could also go with her in December, and make sure I'll be back in February... I'm so excited about this!! The only problem is money.. I honestly hate money, just like you cait..

You getting a tattoo of an Ostrich?? LOL!! Why an ostrich? what do they mean to you?? You surely would be original if you would get an ostrich-tattoo!! Lol

Fea, thanx so much for telling us all about Chlo! I was so happy to read that she's doing fine! I really like the names she's come up with!! Ella Jaye, that's so pretty!! And Joshua is one of my favorite names too!! I really hope she will be able to get online herself sometimes soon, and tell us all the little details of being pregnant! I miss her!!

Fea and Nikki, are you having fun there on the other side of the lake?? You'll have to tell us all the Fleur-Nicole-Leah adventures!!

I have to go now, get a nice warm shower that will hopefully make me feel better, and then try to get to the central station to meet Tamara without getting stuck in the snow :p. We've been having quite a lot of snow the past week! Last week I woke up with the sun shining on my face, and I got so excited cause I could just feel spring in the air.. That feeling is gone now :p.

Love you guys, and I'll try to post more again from now on!!

"When dreaming I'm guided through another world
Time and time again
At sunrise I fight to stay asleep
Cause I don't want to leave the comfort of this place
Cause there's a hunger longing to escape
From the life I live when I'm awake"