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I can't believe that you wrote exactly what I'm feeling these days!

I want to see the world so badly, partly because I feel that what I desire deep, deep within me will be out there. That I'll find it in Holland, in Morocco, in Jamaica, wherever. I know that when I've been places before, even just to the hills in Eureka, or around California, I experience such a deep joy...almost like a sad-happy feeling, you know? Because I love where I am, how I feel, I love being alive, but I can't keep it. I'll have to leave, or it won't always be that way, or I won't always be alive to experience it.

Now I'm rambling!

Yana, I also feel like my life is all wrong right now. I shouldn't be living in Eureka and going to college. I should be at home, working, earning money, and traveling. Traveling -- that's where the real education is at! Do you feel like working at the hospital is wrong for you?

It's so hard being in love, though, and Nathan is going to college, so I'm with him, and blah blah.

I won't live up there anymore, though, after this semester is done. I just can't do it. Here is where I love to be, where I feel the happiest and most productive.

Those programs you mentioned -- what are they called? I've been looking into work/travel programs, too, but ugh, they're expensive!

I can't believe you would go to Indonesia! What can I say -- lucky duck! How exciting, exotic, eye-opening, etc!

"I've never had a humble opinion.
If you've got an opinion,
why be humble about it?"