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ELLIE

Oh my God, angel, how can I POSSIBLY say anything? I'm not just shocked. I'm not just going, "Wow" or "No way" or "OH NO". I'm sitting here with my heart pounding. I'm hardly breathing. I'm stunned. Where are good, comforting words when I need them? Where is the airplane that would take me to you and wrap you up in hugs?

I'm amazed at how quickly the world changes. You're part of my life, and so my life is tilted off balance now. I've never, ever thought about what it would be like -- even that it could HAPPEN -- if one of my friends lost a parent.

Sweet pea, come on here anytime, just rant, rage, cry, pray, shout, whatever! I have no idea what I should do. My life is intact; yours is not, in such a way that I can't even fathom, can't even think of anything to say.

I want to cheer you up, but how how how? I'm horrified that this has happened. I'm horrified that I can't imagine at ALL what it's like. The world must seem so crazy and unreal right now. How can I do anything at all?

I'm too shocked and saddened to write anything more. Until we talk again, just...keep breathing! Breathing = life. I LOVE you!