Your username and handle seem to be related to the way that this piece reads. You've worked very hard, as early as the first years of school, toward a specific goal. Now, this goal seems to be off-limits. I can understand that attempting something for nine times and still not see the end of it can feel daunting and, yes, it does take away hope.

One thing that I can tell you is that you are a very good writer. This text is factual, yet emotional. It is informative, specific, and gives a good bit of background.

One thing that I am not clear on is what a "Chartered Accountant" is. This may be a difference in countries. I live in the USA where accountants are usually CPAs, meaning Certified Public Accountants. I am not sure why it's called "Public" since most of them work in the private sector.

So far, I have only taken one accounting class. It wasn't hard, it wasn't easy. It just was there. Of course, the next classes are bound to be much harder.

I hope that you don't give up on your dream. At this point, you've made it too far to give up. I wonder if a vacation, or just not taking the next available test but one in a few months from now will be the one that gets you over the hump.

Keep on keeping up!