Nine years of pain

My dirty little secret
Embedded into my soul
It wounds and it stabs
Makes me feel less than whole
It tears me apart
Limb by limb
I search for the light
But the light is dim
Nine years of anguish
Nine years of pain
Nine years of torture
Nine years of shame
My heart broke down
But my head held high
My spirit had faded
But no one knew why
I'm finally ready to open my heart
My predictions correct the families have part
His family says their sorry,
But I know they fell no shame
He ruined my life, he tore me to shreds..
And all their worried about is their name
Their afraid people will talk
So they say just let it pass
No, not this time
This time I'm gonna get his ass!!