Outta my mind

I should have done what I was told
But I thought they were to old
To understand all the pain
That lingered in my brain
Nothing I could do
To get through
It's hard to be you
When you feel so blue
So we did it my way
Now I've got to pay
For the mistake I made them make
So they want to help me through
Help ME do what THEY want me to
I want to scream out loud
But all I can do is think about
That November day
I wish it would fade away
It's just so hard
When I've come so far
To want to go back
To all the days that were black
I thought these feelings were gone
That now I can move on
All I can do is cry
God I wonder why
It happened to me
Life use to be easy
Thinking back
It was all white and black
Now life is just gray
And this is the way
I feel all the time
Just outta my mind