fallen apart

I don't know when we fell apart,
Or even where it happened.
I don't know when we stopped caring,
Or when we stopped sharing.
It used to be that i knew you,
And you knew me.
We once use to laugh,
And play all day long.
We exchanged hugs and ideas,
Smiles and tears.
No secrets were kept,
We talked all the time.
We knew each others every move,
And heard each others every thought.
But now it's like you've gone away.
Days are no longer spent laughing.
Instead they are spent crying.
We pass each other by,
Without a single smile.
We no longer talk or hug.
We live in the same house,
Though it feels like your millions of miles away.
I no longer know you.
Your just another person in the world.
I tried to hold on,
But you just pushed away harder,
Until I had to let go.
But now you look at me,
And you blame me.
You get upset when I act like I don't care,
And you say I pushed you away.
There was once a time when I cared completely.
When I could not live without you.
But I was forced to do so,
So I dealt how I could.
Now I can be alone.
And although it hurts,
I can live with being alone,
And living with a person I don't even know.
A stranger who was once like my sister,
But I guess that's the way things go.
And thats the way it went.
Maybe it was really my fault,
And maybe I asked to be hurt.
Perhaps I should have,
Could have,
Just hung on a little while longer.
But I was being torn apart from the inside out,
And letting go was the only way to hold onto life.
I'm sorry for what we lost.
But even though it seems lost,
And I've lost the ability to hold on,
I still love you,
And I wish we were together again. 09-07-04