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excuse me please
your child is diseased
I drink juice from
roots of tree stems
sometimes these aliens
tell me things
I wear vegetables
for my clothes

but when it thunders and the rain hits my face
when the water slides in my mouth what a waste

shake my shaking hands
reach in my heart and unplug the arteries
and knot the tubes so my blood piles up
and i burst----

hold on wait
lets masterbate
grandma's angel
on the porch still
knocking and bagning
screaming with pain
hitting gargoles and
watching the cement
rupturing

capturing the peices in my palm
chewing on them as soft as a bomb

shake my shaking hands
reach in my heart and unplug the arteries
and knot the tubes so my blood piles up
and i burst----

on your own descending into the stray humans of our moldy rock with nothing to grab hold of no way to brace for when i hit bottom am i ready? am i enough
i just fucking can't give up